LSS

There are two actually... right now, on loop when I listen through either iTunes on Genrou or on Cloud (my iPod).

MORARU no Soushiki (Moral no Soushiki / Funeral of Morals) by Angela Aki featured in Today, her 2nd album. You can find the lyrics here.

I especially love this part which gives me goosebumps whenever I listen to it:

Doujou ga hageshiku unazuki
Hakushu ga okori
Shinjitsu ga risei no mimimoto de itta

“Watashi mo musuko ga ita no
Kibou ga inakunatte mo kare wa ima demo
Mina no naka de ikite iru”


The translation I found translates it like this:

With the nodding of their heads and the
clapping of their hands they show their sympathy.
And Truth whispers to Reason:

“I had a son as well, and even
though Hope is no longer with us,
he continues to live inside of us”

*sigh* Makes me tear up coz I eventually think of the twins... ... ...

Anyways, Chouwa oto~with reflection~ by Kokia is the other one. You can find romanji lyrics here. The other night when I had this on repeat I actually dreamed about it, or a story that could be connected to it. Yes I know the song's already been used in an animated movie (in Giniro No Kami No Agito, to be exact), but apart from there being dragons in my dream the two stories are nowhere alike. Here's how it went, my dream I mean. At least, what I can remember of it.

There's this family of four brothers. I'm not entirely sure about who their parents were but the brothers were a tight-nit bunch. The eldest somewhat reminded me of Chad in Bleach, guess coz he had the same coloring and body type and quietness in terms of personality. He looked different from his brothers coz in my dream I knew that he wasn't connected to his family by blood. The two middle brothers were either twins or looked so much alike that they might as well had been. Think Fred and George from Harry Potter in terms of personality but not in looks. The middle brothers were also dark skinned. But no, not African American dark... more like Latino or Hispanic... if you get what I mean. Tanned. Just like their eldest brother. The one who looked like their mother, very fair skinned was the youngest who was still a teenager and in high school.

What I remember about the dream the most was that the youngest was complaining about why he looked the most different amongst his brothers, that he looked nothing like them. What was more, the brothers had these tattoos on them since they were young. On the eldest, a nearly full torso (back, chest and abdomen) tattoo that looked like a dragon about to fly mixed with tribal designs for the wings. The middle brothers had something similar, but theirs was like the half of each other's... like if they stood side by side their tattoos would look like one whole picture, but on their own looked like gibberish, just lines that one wouldn't be able to make out. Then the youngest only had a small (compared to his brothers anyways) one right smack in the middle of his chest that looked more like an eye with a wing or something like that if one looked really closely. So the youngest was complaining that how come he was the most different of the brothers, why was it only him who looked like their mom and most bitterly he complained about his small tattoo which was nothing, he said, not nearly enough if you compare it to his brothers.

The dream shifts perspective then. I get a flashback that involved the brothers' dad. He was talking with someone I wasn't able to see clearly coz the person was in shadows. He said that each of his younger sons would have to be given tattoos that looked similar to the one the eldest son had. And the tattoos were put on the boys when they were all still too young to know anything about it.

Then the dream shifts again and I was confronting the eldest. He was sitting slouched atop some steps in what looked like a park but it was night. City lights were beyond him at a distance. He was wearing a cotton v-neck t-shirt and I was standing over him from his right side when I saw the top part of his tattoo on his chest. I guess we were friends but new ones coz I was surprised when I saw his tattoo sticking out of his collar. I dropped down and yanked his shirt collar away from him so I could see the tattoo better. He didn't expect me to do that and was so surprised he just gawked at me for several minutes while I looked down his shirt. Then I realized what I was doing and I backed away blushing. Then the dream me for some reason remembered the flashback with the brothers' dad and I realized somehow that his wasn't a tattoo, it was a birthmark albeit it didn't look like one and passed for a tattoo coz it wasn't just one color although it was predominantly black.

And I woke up thinking, ah I finally found the last black dragon. My waking self knew that my dream self knew that because she was one herself, only of the red. And that she had her own hidden birthmark/tattoo as well that looked a lot like the eldest son's. I woke up to the part in Kokia's song wherein she says the numbers: 3 25 15 21 23 1 and I realized so that's the hint to the brothers secret. There are three blood brothers. One was not of their blood but the remaining one of a certain special race. 25, 15, 21, and 23 were the ages of the four guys. *shrug* now that I'm just remembering it, it sounds kinda silly, doesn't it? But while I was waking up it seemed to make a heck of a lot of sense. Well it was a dream after all.