Wednesday, June 25, 2003

*sighs* anu ba yan... kainis. why do i have the feeling that my Reading prof would pick on me?

2nd day went considerably okay especially since I saw you-know-who... Mwahahahahah!!! ang labo talaga nyan nito. It's not like I'll see the guy everyday, heaven forbid that I see him daily coz if I do it means I'm in trouble with the school, which I don't want to be but then I do like seeing the bloody sod. Hah, ewan! Basta ganun lang yun. Inis! Wonder when my second interview with him will be though? ^_____^0

Well, gotta go since maaga pa ako bukas.

First day of school yesterday... Well, it was for me anyway.

I feel like I'm half wasting my time with my subjects, most of which I've already taken up in ADMU. I'm just making myself think that I need the review I'm more or less getting... oh well. This is just for this semester... next sem would be more harrowing as I have to take up 31 units! And to think in my ADMU days 21 was already a lot!

To answer Ana's question: It's different. Feels rather odd that the professors would at times switch to Pampango to explain something. The space is a lot more cramped as the buildings are mostly within a few yards if not interconnected with each other. I can't really say by just going there one day. Funny thing is I've developed a crush on none other than the bleeding prefect of discipline!!! Yeah right, what are the chances of that, right?! Virtually nill... MWAHAHAHHAHA!!! ^_________^ Oh well...

Monday, June 23, 2003

I find it odd that I cannot seem to make myself read any of the books I have here at home. I don’t feel like taking one from the shelf, opening it, and getting immersed into the story. Neither do I feel like listening to the radio. Some few days ago I even had the urge to erase all the mp3s I have saved in my hard drive. I watch T.V., but not as much as I did before. I can live without the television or not knowing what happened to the shows I used to follow. I don’t even have much of an appetite left. I just eat because I need to. I don’t enjoy eating anymore coz everything I eat is just so hard to chew, even really soft foods like noodles, bananas, papaya, etc. I don’t know why I’m like this. But I’m not alarmed. I haven’t felt as great as I’m feeling now. I feel… strangely liberated. Like a load had been taken off my shoulders. I feel… clean.

Wala lang.

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

So I like taking these online quizzes… so what?

HASH(0x8748a94)
My outercourse activity is snuggling!


Which Sexual Outercourse Act Are You? (with pictures)
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You're Tseng!

Turk quiz taken at Pro Fools






What NERV Child Are You?



[take the test] - [by krystaljungle.com]



You Are a Samurai
You are a Samurai.
You have trained the majority of your life. You are
honerable, you follow your word. You spare no
one once in combat, but that is expected, for
your oponent would do the same to you. You use
a two-handed katana.


What type of Swordsman are you?
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Ruling Sword
Sword of Ruling:
The sword for you is the Sword of Ruling. With
this sword you can be a great leader, as well
as a great follower. People like your style
becasue you are fair and logical. You're smart
and the sword knows it and thus will do its
best to keep you from making mistakes. Whether
or not this is a good thing is up to you.


What Kind of Sword is Right for You? ((AWESOME PICS INCLUDED!!))
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Cutest little dragon master.

Find out what anime girl you are.





cold.. or are you?

Find out what bishonen you are.


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Find out what anime series you belong in.



Take This Quiz!



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What's Your Anime Power?







Take the Anime soundtrack Quiz





take this quiz.

Friday, June 13, 2003

How odd. Ever since I came back everything inside me craves silence. I can’t stand listening to anything for too long. I like the sound of silence humming throughout my brain. It’s soothing. Before, I liked noise. I hated silence because it made me think too much about things I didn’t want to think about. Now though, I welcome the embrace of silence.

I didn’t feel particularly depressed but last night before I went to sleep I was able to draw some more characters for Illusion. Reginald Marcus and Joseph Blanco turned out really well. I wasn’t able to draw Dominic Wesley since I couldn’t see in my mind’s eye what he looks like. I particularly like how Reginald turned out though. I drew a teenaged version as well as an older version of him and Joseph. My mom liked Joseph’s sketch better although his teenaged version turned out looking like a cross between Hiko Seijuro of RK and Sohma Ayame of Furuba.

I’m beginning to like My MVP Valentine better than Meteor Garden. Not that I’m dissing MG, it’s just that IMHO the MMV people act better than the people in MG. Trouble is, I can’t really watch MMV fully coz everyone else here at home wanna watch MG. Whatever. I know both plots wellenough not to miss what’s going on.

Another quiz I saw at Gem’s blog:

The Angry Princess
The Angry Princess


What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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How odd to have gotten this result when this same character from the movie “13 Ghosts” made me lose sleep, have nightmares, and fear going to the bathroom for several days ^^0

Thursday, June 12, 2003

To those whom I owe an explanation... this is how I felt that time...

* * *
It's like I'll disappear as soon as I close my eyes
I feel like I've turned into someone that even I don't recognize
Sadly, I've become so small
I want to be rescued, but instead of sighing
I vomited up my loneliness, and just lay there, measuring it all up

Amidst this drop of time gone dry
My heart is drowning and writhing
These lies that make me dizzy
I took them and tore them up
And with that,
I became lost
In a world of thin darkness.

For the sake of those whom I should trust
I chose to come here,
a cage into which I've locked myself,
and now there's no escape.
Deep inside my parched throat
Lies the reason for this growing impermanence
Scared of the approaching tomorrow
I cower and collapse
But it seeks me out and whispers to me
This voice of thin darkness.

Amidst this drop of time gone dry
My heart is drowning and writhing
These lies that make me dizzy
I took them and tore them up
And with that, I became lost
In a world of thin darkness.

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lyrics came from: Shell (Witch Hunter Robin)
English translation from animelyrics.com

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Quizzes... yes. Again.

saneotaku
You are a True Blue Anime Fan! You don't scare
people, but you know a lot. Congrats, this is
probably the result you want to achieve.


Are YOU an Otaku?
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HASH(0x86a7344)
Cutie,Goddess,Fighter,Hottie?

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Hiei of course
Hiei meets you by chance and is amazed. He has
never met anyone like you before. You are
brave, cunning, fearless, and comfortable with
your surroundings. He loves you instantly,
without willing to admit it!


Do you match up with Hiei?
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trigun
You were right! Im so happy you know who I am!
(Vash)You know LOTS bout Trigun!(Even know this
is my first quizie and I don't know how to work
it!)HEHE


How much do you know about Trigun?
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Intellectual
You're An Intellectual!
You can always be found reading or on the computer.
People always come to you when they need
information. You don't really care about love
at this point, your only goal is to improve
your mind. After all, knowledge is power!


What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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You are Charlotte.  Beautiful, shy and girly.  All you really want is a huge wedding and a wonderful husband but you are slowly working your way through the male population in your ques
You are Charlotte. Beautiful, shy and girly. All
you really want is a huge wedding and a
wonderful husband but you are slowly working
your way through the male population in your
quest to find mr right, not that you'd readily
admit it! You always end up with mr
perfect...but.. and the but is usually some
kind of bizarre or disappointing bedroom
activity.


"A 'Sex and the City' quiz"
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vanilla!
You are vanilla! The purest of them all!


*What Ice cream flava are you??*
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pheebes
U R Pheobe !!Go you! You like to have fun , but
when it comes to work , you are as serious as
ever.You have bad luck in relationships . poor
you .
You have the powers of premonition and can levitate
.


:+:+:Which Charmed sister are you ?:+:+:
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You are A Charmed Fanatic!
You are a Charmed fanatic!


How Much Do You Know 'bout Charmed
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Tsugiri
You are Tsugiri. Beautiful and melancholic, you
strive to cope with horrors in your past. You
are kind but still not sure what you life is
for and since living for yourself is not
enough, you try to protect those that are
important to you at all costs.


Manga- What Alichino Character Are You?
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rather long post, wasn't it?

I find that I cannot explain myself yet so give me time. it's too long a story anyway... but I'm grateful you guys care...

Friday, June 06, 2003

What does one do when one learns that one’s dreams would NEVER come true?
What does one do when there is no more reason to continue being?
How does one cope with hating one’s self? Of despising what one has become?
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Saw a kitten in the middle of the road last Wednesday during my 9th driving class. It was literally stuck in the middle of the lane I was passing by. Yes, it was alive even after I passed it by. I wanted to pull over and get it, but then my driving instructor was looking at me so oddly, like why would I do something like that?
The only reason why I even mentioned the poor thing is this: I am that kitten.

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

just one more session left for my driving school stint. I'm becoming used to the road. I now have more respect to drivers all around the world, particularly here in the Philippines. Why you ask? Well, mainly because of the sheer guts they have in driving in this country. My nerves at first kept on popping whenever a jeepney or tricycle or passerby suddenly cross my right of way, but now I think I'm getting used to it.

Btw, I literally hate myself right now. I can't explain why. I just do.

Sunday, June 01, 2003

Went to two celebrations: a golden wedding anniversary and my nephew’s 15th birthday.

Food galore! As in!

The golden wedding was sweet to watch. The old couple renewed their vows and the idea that up until now they still looked visibly in love with each other was so very nice to watch. I wish my parents would be able to celebrate their golden anniversary. Not a lot of married couples can. Either they’ve separated or one had died too early.

My nephew’s birthday bash turned out as a reunion of sorts coz his grandmother also just came back from the US so most of the family friends and semi-distant relatives who haven’t seen her came over. It was a whole day event. Started at around breakfast until late at night coz the younger crowd had rented out some sound system and were having singing sessions... I don’t wanna think about how they sounded.

quizzes again...

imagination
Imagination


What Kanji word best suits you?
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yay! for once I kinda like the result i got.


heterosexual
You are heterosexual.


What is your sexual orientation?
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obviously.


Pilot 01, Heero Yuy
Heero Yuy -- What you have been taught and what
you feel do not always coincide, but you are
learning to be the person you really are deep
down. You struggle with what is right at
times, but there's no stopping you when you set
your mind to something. While your strength
and resiliance may surprise others, you know
you can endure anything life throws at you.


Gundam Wing Personality Quiz
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heero?! and here I was rooting to get Duo...


The Spider is reserved for those who seem to live in their own world. You try to push others away from your life and not get involved with any other's. What are you hiding from the re
The Spider is reserved for those who seem to live
in their own world. You try to push others away
from your life and not get involved with any
other's. What are you hiding from the rest of
the world?


What mask do you wear?
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*no comment*


trinity
Trinity.
Beauty that packs a punch.Not to be messed around
with.


Who you are in the Matrix.
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her? talaga? hmmm...


San Cai/Makino Tsukushi
Makino Tsukushi/San Cai


Which Meteor Garden + Hana Yori Dango character are you?
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hay... this is the 2nd quiz I took based on MG and I got similar answers ^^;