Forgot to post this before, about one of my classmates in section L. His name’s Jorjen Yabut. His family’s from around our town, but as is typical of me, I didn’t know anything about him.

We were talking about death in one of our classes, and Jorjen shared about what happened to his family. He told the class that his mother, older brother, sister, and twin siblings all died in a car accident around a year ago.

He from what I’ve observed of him, he didn’t look like someone who underwent such a tragic experience. He was laughing or smiling half the time I saw him, always ready to tell jokes along with our other guy classmates.

I remember thinking during that class that his story was familiar. Then I realized that it was the same as the rumor my mother told me around a year ago. Of a family who were on the way to fetch the father at the airport and then on the way back five of them died when a bus hit the car they were riding. I remember thinking, “too bad for them. Ah well, that’s life.” Or something to that sense. I didn’t really care.

Now seeing my classmate’s face, smiling a year after that tragedy, I can’t help but feel some sort of wonder and admiration. If what happened to him happened to me, I don’t think I can dredge myself out of the deep well of depression. I think I’d end up hating everything and everybody.

He made me think of Honda Tohru, but his circumstances are a lot more hurtful, I think, coz he lost so many of his loved ones and still managed to smile a year later.

***


Your a Guradien Angel! Guardien Angels are also
knows as Warrior Angels, because they are the
army of God. Not always meaning that they are
in war, simply that their job is to protect
unwary humans from dark dragons, or other evil
demons. Warrior Angels are not always friendly
with humans, but they will watch over them all
the time. Humans say that when a miracle
happens, thank your guradien angel.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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You enter the door .You see the higher being and
listen to what it says to you:
I have already been waiting for you.You ask
yourself why, dont you? Let me explain:
You should know that I am not the highest being I
am just one of the nine servants. And I am
sent to make you think about something but I am
not here to answer your questions. I can not
tell you too much but I will come again. So
listen what I have to say!
I am the higher being of help. I shall say you that
there was a difficult time for you . That you
had to make the experience how it is to be sad.
I can tell you that this happens in every mans
life one time. But this time is over soon, I am
told that this will change and a long, long
happy time will come to you. Something human
call love will come over you .And this will
help you to destroy your feelings of sadness
and pain, and you will feel like a new human.
I cant identify if it is the love to a woman/man,
friend, family member or god but it will give
you some new hope, believe me!
Thus spoke the higher being of help and now wake
up!
If you want the higher beings to come again please
rate this quiz. It will may take some time but
I have to work hard. Messages are also welcome!


~Visit the higher being in one of your dreams and listen what he says to you !!!WITH PICS!~
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The school year’s finally ended. My classes are over.

God I hated that last Organic Chemistry / Biochemistry test. It was 8 pages long, font size 10, printed on a long bond paper. We had to answer around 150 questions and the hardest ones were about those blastedly long-named enzymes. Anyway, it’s done. I just have to wait for the class cards.

My cousin, Paul, is planning to take up nursing as well. Cool with me. Thing is, I have to help him enroll. I’m yet again functioning as that guy’s older sister. Not that I hate it. It just hits me at times that they’re old enough (being 19), so why do his parents (and my mom) still coddle him (and his siblings) like he was this toddler who doesn’t know how to cross a street? For crying out loud, they don’t even know how to do some basic house chores for themselves. Their mother, my aunt, literally goes to pieces when they’re without any house help. She doesn’t even let them wash the dishes, nor do they volunteer to do so. They’re too pampered, is what I think.

Argh, whatever. Didn’t mean to rant. I’m happy the semester’s over.

I wanna go visit my friends in Manila!!! I haven’t seen them for soooooooo long! Reunion tayo, guys? Heheheh ^_^

I had a dream about our former house, but in the dream it was a two-story instead of a bungalow, I had two brothers and one younger sister, and our parents were separated. In the dream we had this one room that all of us were afraid to go into. It was a bedroom in the middle of the house, the largest one. It had a comfort room of its own and a hidden closet that contained a spiral staircase that led to the attic. If we were afraid of going into that middle room, then we were petrified of even the thought of what the attic contained. I don’t remember why we ended up going there, my siblings and I, just that I was in the very front and that they were all cowering behind my back. Then when I finally opened the door to the attic, we were surprised to find all our old toys stashed there. The floor was literally littered with toys of every kind and shape, and star, sun, and moon shaped crystal lights hung from the ceiling. The attic was so beautiful.

I woke up a few minutes later, the dream went on some more, but I’ll stop my narration there mainly because that part made me pensive.

In real life there are places or things we don’t want to get into, afraid of what they contain or what they have in store for us, maybe too afraid that we totally miss the possibly beautiful experience it could bring. I have to stop living like that.

And the thing that strikes me more is that I don’t have to enter those places alone. I may not have two brothers and a sister, cowering yet more importantly still present, behind me but I do have my family and friends. I think that’s what makes the dream more beautiful for me... that it made me appreciate yet again those people’s presence in my life.


...Wahahahah!!! Ang sappy nun! Yeech! ^^

How odd that we always want what others have and never are satisfied with what we have. Maybe we behave this way because we see these people so happy while we can only see the loneliness that envelopes our own lives so that we end up thinking that if we had what they had our own lives would turn out for the better.

And sometimes I wish I could turn back time. Turn back the clock to the time I was presented that one chance that I missed all because I felt too scared to grab for it. But I can’t. And that saddens me.

But I’ve realized that I wouldn’t be the person I am now if I took that chance. I may not like the me that I am now, but I’m working on liking myself more and more. And someday, I hope when I’m ready for it, that chance will present itself again and this time I will, with all my soul, take hold of it and let it enter my heart.

Totally hooked with Full Moon o Sagashite after reading 15 chapters of its scanlation that I downloadedand still am downloading. I want my own copy of the manga!!! So far there are five volumes? I?m thinking if I should buy it first before Furuba. I hope there?s an anime coz I really also wanna watch it. The story?s just heartbreaking. I don?t want to give anyone spoilers here, but damn? it made me cry. I mean really cry. If anyone of you want a good clean cry then go ahead and read FMoS.

Anyways, here are some quizzes again. If anyone knows of any Dune-related quiz please give me a link to it? I?m also still reading House Harkonnen (yes, even if it?s my finals week next week I?m being such a bad student as usual and am preferring to cram and read manga and novels instead of studying for my tests?) and am still obsessed with the Dune universe ^^


You are the chinese element of Water. People who
are under the element of Water are creative,
independent and intelligent. Water you are a
dreamer, but are quite vulnerable, and have
hidden agendas. The color of water is black,
and your symbol is the tortoise. Winter is the
season in which Water shines and it's months
are October/November. Your weather condition
is cold. Water is the direction of north, and
your day is Wednesday, while your planet is
Mercury. Animals under your element are
usually shelled. People under you are Turks.
Your sense is hearing, your taste is salty,
your sound is moaning and your virtue is
knowledge. Your organs are the kidneys. You
were created by Metal and control Fire.


Which of the 5 Chinese Elements Are You?
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Di ako fire? Ah well?

***


You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)


What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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***


You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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okay? I would?ve been in full agreement on this a year ago.

***


You are a normal angel. Innocent and pure. Full of
light and hope. You love to be around others,
and really know how to have a good time. You
enjoy hanging around with mortals. You like ti
sing, which you are great at, and like to have
others near you. People are naturally attracted
to your bubbly personaliy, and love to be
around you. Normal angels are always popular,
and have lots of fans. You are happy go lucky,
with an interesting out look on the world.

Though you have experienced pain, that is all
behind you now. You see the bright side to
things, and are always there to help a person
in need. You are quite pretty, with a childish
air, though you know more than others think.

You are a really friendly person. But can be a tad
selfish at times.

You are bright and full of energy.

Better get my shades!


What Type Of Angel Have You Become?
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***

You are exactly the type of girl Hiei is looking
for!!!Yay. Even though you are not a good
fighter, you understand Hiei better than anyone
else. You know when he needs you and when he
needs his space.That is a thing Hiei absolutely
LOVES about you! You and Hiei would be a
perfect match!!! Yay ^-^


A date with Hiei (the anime hottie from YuYuHakusho)
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Yay! Lolz? whatever happens, I?ll always be a Hiei fan my entire life I think ^^

***
Quizzes done for now, here?s one of those survey-type thingies: (halata bang ala akong alam ikwento? Actually marami kaso pagnagkita na lang tayo saka ko na ikwento mga exploits ko dito sa province hehehe ^_^)



INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.


01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet. at the dorm, I was drunk. go figure. it was just a few seconds... or minutes
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders. I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. Yes, I know more about science now.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn. Particularly in Anatomy
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses. Astigmatism
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.
32. I have potential. for what I wonder?
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart.
47. I know more than two languages. (I'm TRYING, okay?...ditto)
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window. (NEVER!!! I LOVE MY GENROU III!!!)
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original. (to think in another quiz-thingie I got ?Originator? as my result! Waheheheh)
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter. (and several fanfics about Draco and Hermione? so sue me for liking that pairing. I just do!)
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise. Now I do, before I certainly didn't.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. My favourite colour is Black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.Sleeping since I've an early class tom.
73. I am online a lot, but not on MSN.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a boyfriend. Working on it.
76. I'm too nice for my own good. Hey, miracles can happen, so I can be nice too!
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of American fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes. soooooooothing...
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary. (Online Journal actually, but that?s technically a diary, isn?t it?)
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic. at times...
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very sensitive.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.

Was searching for original fiction webrings when I chanced upon another really cool art gallery.

Renee LeCompte is another deviantart and epilogue.net artist and so far, of what I’ve seen of her works, they’re completely N-I-C-E ^^ They aren’t anime/manga style though. She’s into realism. If anyone’s interested, here’s the link to her site:

http://www.notonigon.com/html/main.html

Haaaay... I kinda wish tuloy na I took Fine Arts instead of Lit. Would have been nice to learn techniques on how to improve my pieces. Well, there’s this school Tita Betty’s been telling me to enroll in, E.R.Tagle or something like that, supposedly near Don Bosco Pugad, but...

Hmm... maybe during the summer break? Yeah! Maybe...

Oh wait... right. We’re going on that trip. Tuloy pa nga ba kaya yun? Parang di na ata e. I’m not hearing any updates about it lately.

Besides, I don’t really think I’d want to pay to study art. I’m too moody. I can’t constantly draw with a timetable in mind. I draw when I feel like drawing. I don’t when I don’t feel like it. However much I’d like to draw, when I’m not in the mood to draw that’s just that. Whatever I sketch ends up looking like shit.

Anyway, here's another quiz:


Your Energy is Pink. You have achieved a perfect
balance between spiritual awareness and
material existence. You are usually
affectionate and warm, showing compassion and
love for others. Others find you genuine,
cooperative and friendly. You are a
humanitarian and you possess a deep
understanding of life. You may aspire to
philanthropy, or you may find yourself heading
or volunteering for agencies that create change
for the good of the whole. You are a leader
and are willing to take on much responsibility.


What color is your energy?
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WTF? PINK?! Huh?!

Seems I’m in a scifi-fantasy-adventure mood. Sabagay, matagal na kong fan ng genre na to so it’s nothing new.

Not only have I been obsessing about Dune, but I’m also so into the Andromeda tv series that I’m risking getting late for class everyday so I could just watch it. I like the fact that both stories could be so philosophical. Tyr and Becka are so cute together!!! Wahahaha!!! It’s nothing new, that kind of relationship where they keep bickering with each other but work so well together.

Ah fuck they had to go missing just when they were getting along so well. Ano to, season ender? WAHHH NOOO!!! Don't tell me mawawala sina Tyr at Becka sa cast!!!

The Andromeda’s a lot Star Trek-like, true, but I can’t seem to find the will to watch Star Trek. It bores me to death every time I try to even watch one episode. I dunno what gives. It’s scifi. It’s fantasy. It’s adventure. It can get philosophical, from some of the episodes I’ve seen. But I don’t like it. I don’t despise watching it, I just find myself switching channels even when I see one. Maybe because I wasn’t able to watch the very first episode? Nah... I don’t think that’s it.

Btw, I checked out Dune’s official site (http://www.dunenovels.com/)and saw this:

“The story dune fans have been waiting for... Brian Herbert and Kevin J. Anderson are collaborating again on the seminal events of the Butlerian Jihad — the epochal conflict between humans and thinking machines, set ten thousand years before the events in the Prelude to Dune Novels.”

Yeah!!! *dancing around with a huge grin plastered on my face* Now I’m off to hound the local NBS so they’d get me a copy!

Took a break from mangas and went back to the beloved universe of Frank Herbert’s Dune. Finally got to read the prequel written by Frank’s son. Finished House Atreides yesterday and am now into the fourth chapter of House Harkonnen.

I feel weird reading about the 40 to 50-ish crowd in the original Dune books now at their younger years. Leto became a duke at 16 and his concubine-to-be, Paul Muadib’s mom, the Bene Gesserit-trained Jessica was just born around that time. Gurney Halleck and Duncan Idaho, both originally from Geidi Prime, were around the same age (Gurney 21 and Idaho 20) in the book House Harkonnen. They didn’t look anything like they had such a close age range in the movie. Liet wasn’t the original Planetologist of Dune, his father was. And Liet’s around the same age as Jessica.

There are so many inconsistencies when it comes to the character’s ages in the books and the films. It really is better to read stuff like these instead of watching them. Well, that’s with the exception of Tolkien’s LoTR where I really liked the film much more than I did the books.

I have to find and buy the third of the prequel, House Corrino. Then again maybe I could just download it from Kazaa heheheh ^^

Wish the authors would write about the Butlerian Jihad though. Machines against humans... sounds a lot like the Matrix trilogy, ne? Wonder how they’d deviate from that movie if they were to write it though? Not my prob, they’re a pretty creative and talented lot so no worries for me, I’ll just have to wait till those books get out on the market.

Lost in Translation is totally boring. It isn’t at all entertaining, and for me, its only saving factor is that it was set in Japan. I watched it only because I had spare time to waste. I understand why it would get nominated as a best picture in the Oscars, but it was boring boring boring. Like The Hours, which almost made me sleep. I guess I watched both those films at the wrong time. I think I’d rather read those kinds of stories rather than watch them. I gather that I’d appreciate them more if I got to know them in that genre instead of film.

In total contrast, Gothica (or was that Gothika?) made my heart jump in fright every other five minutes. I advice anyone with a weak heart to pass this movie up or if you truly want to watch it, better don’t do it alone. Sound effects are perfectly placed, and the unrealistic ordinariness of some of the settings is eeriness in itself. The plot’s rather run of the mill horror-suspense-mystery though. I kinda know the who, how, & why of the story midway into watching. Sucks sometimes that I took that play-writing class coz I can’t appreciate movies as much as I’d like too. I’m becoming too critical whenever I watch one.

Besides watching those two movies, I also just finished reading the translation of another shoujo manga, Tsumi ni Nureta Futari by Miyuki Kitagawa. Hope the manga didn’t really end in volume 14 coz sobrang bitin ang story! Like the summary where I got the translations from said, it is a rather dark story. It’s about incest; brother and sister falling in love, they didn’t know they were siblings when they met yadda blah blah blah… nothing new about that plot but the way it’s presented is interesting enough that I read everything available and am now rooting there’s more. Oh yeah, the lemon scenes are also tastefully done and aren’t really the focus of the whole plot so they were just fine being there. The art’s kinda Kaikan Phrase-y and the colored pix look so wistful and sweet even though most were pix of Kasumi and Yoshiki (the main characters) more or less making out.

I found translations, manga scans, and scanlations of Akuma de Sourou and Full Moon o Sagashite and been reading them the whole weekend.

I'm supposed to be studying for Biochem but I'm too lazy. Maybe later I will.

Read Jean's blog posts... seems she misses Will. Cute. I hope they end up together ^^ I know Jean's prolly gonna wring my neck next time we see each other for saying that here in the blog. ^_^

I wanna play FF8 again but my cds are still with Clairol.

I really got nothing worthwhile to post right now so I'll just stop before I bore myself to death.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUIDO!!!

Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! Gurang! ^__________^

I know I'll reach your age in a few years pero una ka pa rin sakin and that's just that, ha!

Text kita if ever magpunta ako Mla. Sabi mo maglilibre ka ah! Sabi mo yun a! Shemay, ang dami ko na nga palang utang na regalo sayo... hihihi ^^0

MIdterms over. We have two weeks til finals. Then bakasyon na! Sarap talaga ng buhay estudyante. Sure beats buhay na bum ^_^

Pero pucha, I have to study (memorize) half my chemistry textbook, read the entire 2000+ page biochemistry book I bought for supplemental reading, study earth science, social science, parts and functions of cells, tissues, and get chummy with genetics.

Fun. Not.

I've one thing to look forward to though. I may be going to New York and then later to Tokyo this coming summer. Hope the trip pushes through.