I still feel like I don't want to post anything here in the blog but I'm kinda obligating myself to do this so I here I am ranting and rambling away as always.

What to talk about? Hmmm...

I feel restless. Like something should be happening to me right now that isn't. I feel as though I should be going through something monumentally wrong but I'm not, everything is just alright. But there's this odd intuition that I should be bracing for something really bad to happen. Maybe this is why I don't feel like blogging; because I don't wish to talk about this fear of the unknown.

Just typing abut this makes my chest hurt somewhat. I feel nervous, and it's funny because I feel nervous about... well, nothing. *big sigh*

I think it's coz I don't have anything productive to do. Maybe that's it... yeah, maybe. I need to be busy. I'm used to having deadlines, and the stress of studying and going to our hospital duty. Having nothing to do academic-wise and being in a break/vacation is rather boring. That's it, I'm just bored. And when I'm bored I overthink... at least I gather that's the way it is.

I'm trying to preoccupy myself with reading Naruto manga, writing the Illu November fic, editing and finishing up the uber late April fic, and putting in more details for the Daniel x Franky x JJ story for Illusion Book 2. That and maybe I'll finish up those sketches I started for the manga... maybe. Gods I need something to do and I need it to tire me out but not give me migraines hehehe ^^0 Too demanding ba? Dunno, I hate being bored -_-

Okay, okay... you'd probably expect me to post pics from my trip, but no, I won't. Well, to be honest, I couldn't coz I forgot to bring a camera ^^0 I can ask the others I was with to give me a copy of the pix but I'm too lazy to go to them and ask so guess that can wait.

What have I been doing since coming back? Sleep. Sleep. Went to school to get my grades (let's not talk about that). Sleep. Still gotta finish all the pre-enrollment thingamajigers crap. And of course, I've been downloading Naruto manga. So far I'm in volume 15 chapter 127. So far I like Kakashi the best. That's the second white-haired character I like. His personality kinda makes me think of Furuba's Shigure, I really don't wanna explain why. Just watch or read both titles to understand.

Gah... I really don't feel like blogging. I don't feel like posting this at all. Haaaayyy...

KAMI, but he just smells divine ^^ I won’t say who it is; but writing this made me realize that I get attracted to a guy through 1) his attitude and 2) his smell. That’s right. His smell. He should smell good but not overwhelmingly so. It should be subtle, like you have to get really near him just to catch a whiff of it. Guys who use too much cologne that you could smell them a mile away just tick me off. Whenever I encounter guys – and girls – like that it feels like they have an aura of perfume surrounding them and walling them off. I don’t wanna get near them coz they give me migraines.

I watched Dubai with Shielney, Anthony and April yesterday after the final exams. All I heard about the movie were raves, that it was good and all and that it’s really worth watching. I dunno why but I didn’t like it. It’s cliché. It’s too normal. Either that or I just couldn’t relate coz it was a movie about siblings... still I should’ve been able to coz my dad’s working in another country just like Aga Mulach’s character was, but still I didn’t like it. Maybe because I felt so sleepy I just wanted to close my eyes and zone out. Maybe that was it. The three wanted to roam the mall after the movie but I was just too tired so I went home; 30 minutes after I got home I wouldn’t have known if the world ended coz I was sleeping like the dead.

Anyways, we only have the Pharmacology left to take on Monday. Gah... Pharma. One of my really most hated subjects... and our professor! Gah, I don’t wanna start on how hopelessly ineffective she is. I don’t wanna waste more time ranting about her.

I can’t believe the sem’s over. Well, almost over.

Matutuloy talaga ako sa Baguio on the 19th. I’ll be the CRCYC and NSC representative for the seminar. Gah... hindi po ito bakasyon, trabaho lang pagagawa nila sakin. Darn. It ain’t gonna be a tour coz I have to attend this communication seminar. Bah. At least di ako yung gagastos.


Anyways, here are some blogthings:

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

DREAM

A house made of glass, clean white glass that you could not see through. A statue of three monkeys that rotates and spews forth a music you’d think came from a jewelry box. A bamboo sliding door that bends like a bow with the sea wind. All in a village where everyone’s house was open to the public. An old grandmother giving an unheeded warning of the danger of living in this place to her family. And a young woman who doesn’t know the heartache in store for her once she finally gets introduced to the young man across the street watching their unfinished glass house. I knew her heart would be broken because before seeing all of these, I saw her searching for him not because she misses him cause he left or anything... she was searching for him because she wanted to take revenge on him for killing her family. I could feel her heart breaking when she saw him, walking along an unfamiliar street with an older man. She had a knife in her hands, I could feel her will strengthening as she steeled herself for the kill. That was when the scene changed, and I woke up the first time she saw him watching her from across the street.


TRIP

I might be going to Baguio on October 19, 20 & 21. It’s for a seminar in communication. Have to go coz of Nightingale. As far as I know the school’s covering the expenses. Hell, I wouldn’t go if it wasn’t. I’m saving up on money to spend on something else kasi...


FATHER

It was heartwarming to watch him, this man who was sitting apprehensively in a corner near the doors leading into the delivery room. When the doctor came out carrying this tiny baby boy swaddled in white, I saw his expression transform from anxious to a quiet pride and joy. His smile was tender as he held his baby. It was just so wonderful to watch.


FRIENDS

I’m hoping that in the next semester, the nursing dept would reshuffle the sections. I do not wish to remain with my RLE group mates. I don’t despise them or anything as individuals, I just don’t like our lack of camaraderie that much. Despite spending almost the entire semester with them, I can say they’re not really my friends. I don’t want them to be my friends. I just feel disconnected from them, like I’m a stranger in the group when I’m with them. I cannot wait for the semester to end. It’s lonely being around them.


MOVIE

I watched Brothers Grimm. Wish I didn’t. It’s a complete waste of money.

I got sick. Again. Nilagnat lang naman. Natuyuaan kasi siguro ako ng pawis nung Friday after that horrid-traffic-ridden trip to Manila… yes yes, I went there and didn’t tell you guys. Only bought a book for school, didn’t spend too much time really. Just bought the book, ate and zipped right back to Pampanga. At sa SM North Edsa lang ako nagpunta pero sa dating na yun inabot pa ko ng 5pm para lang makauwi.

So spent whole day Saturday sick and recuperating (translate to sleeping like a log and shivering from the heat kahit na naka-aircon na kwarto). When I wasn’t sleeping I was watching something I bought yesterday... mom kept teasing me about watching it thrice in a row, asked if I was gonna have a quiz about it on Monday or something. Just couldn’t get over my glee (despite my being sick) that the darned DVD actually played on our player and that I got to watch this thing I’ve been waiting impatiently for ever since I heard about it being made.

Well, it was totally weird hearing them; them having voices when all these years they’ve been totally silent and I’ve just imagined what they’d sound like had they been able to talk. It was odd hearing Cloud sound for all the world like FY’s Tamahome for one. But it seemed appropriate somehow. I loved Reno’s seiyuu, and how he delivered Reno’s lines, very… Reno. And Rude looked like a more payat version of the Rock heheh ^^0

Yeah, you guessed it right; I finally got to watch Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children.

I just love love love that scene when the old gang was fighting (was that Bahamut?) that monster Kadaj summoned at the Midgar Shinra memorial.

Cloud rocked, of course. And Sephiroth’s still his demented-but-gods-i-am-too-good-for-this-world-gorgeous self. Kadaj and his gang would have been instant heartthrobs for me too if not for their continuous spouting of “Kaasan! Kaasan wa doko? Give Kaasan back.” Yadda yadda… irritated me to no end that they’re such… immature pricks. Rufus is still a conniving liar. Elena and Tseng had so little airtime that I kinda pity them. Anyways, Vincent was also uber cool; Yuffie and Tifa didn’t change all that much, well… Tifa did get a hair cut and longer and less-revealing more mature-looking clothes. Her garb is a bit reminiscent of Rinoa’s blue ensemble, only in black leather and with a different cut. Cait Sith’s as useless as always, he errr it was sitting astride Red XIII the entire fight scene. At least Cait Sith got more airtime than Reeve who at least got a seiyuu but had no appearance whatsoever. Aerith’s still having trouble admitting she’s very much dead. And unless I was mistaken, there’s a new character, some guy named Mark Sierra who looks and fights a lot like Cid Highwind… or maybe that was Cid and I read the subtitles wrong? Hmmm… did I miss mentioning anyone? Oh, yeah, Barret! That burly gunman’s still as burly and silly and gruff as he was in the game. Anyways, wish that the movie showed a bit more of the old gang battling. Made me wanna play the game again...

And it’s kinda short, I mean, it went by soooo fast! I wanted more and here the credits were already rolling! Gah! I half am ruing that they made it into a movie instead of a game coz I really wanted to get at the console and control those characters I love so darn much. But then it’s also good that it was in movie form since I don’t have the time to play anymore, I barely have enough for sleep as it is.

So why am I up at this hour of the night? Coz I gotta finish up some homework for Monday that I will never get done if I start it only by tomorrow. Got a unit test and 3 quizzes and a paper to get ready for besides this research work that I still have to hand write coz Mam Atienza forbid us to have it computerized. My hand’s hurting already, so far I’ve written six pages worth of info about the nervous system.

So if I don’t post as much in the next couple of weeks, do forgive me in advance. It’s almost finals week and you know how hectic that could be. Wish me luck! Take care y’all!!