Super Impossible Dreams:

1) Make a dream recorder.
I like sleeping not because of the rest and relaxation I get but because I love dreaming. When I have dreams it feels exactly like real life. True that there are some odd happenings in dreams, like the ability of flight among others, but even those peculiar goings-on have explanations why they are like that and are therefore bordering on the normal, the accepted. While dreaming everything truly seems possible. While I dream, I feel oddly alive. The second reason is that I get a lot of ideas when I dream, ideas I could use when writing. I find it extremely regrettable when I know I dreamt something worthwhile but could not remember the details. And so, I want to have a dream recorder.
2) Build an underground library.
I love books and I like collecting them. But it doesn’t end there, for I think the information contained in the books I have and would still collect are too important to keep to myself. I’d like to build a house, probably a two-story villa that has an indoor garden where people could opt to read while relaxing under the shade of a tree. Underneath this house would be an underground library. A treasure hold of knowledge filled with everything that has been written down with paper and ink or inscribed in scrolls or chiseled in stone. A library/museum that I would share with anyone who wishes to research. Of course there would probably be a small fee that would help cover the upkeep of the villa and storing of the books, but everyone would still be welcome even if they couldn’t pay; just as long as they take good care of the materials they would like to borrow.
3) To visit the Halls of the Dead and interview Hitler and Genghis Khan.
My reason? I just frickin’ want to, that’s why.
4) Hmmm, what else? I'll add some more later when I remember them.

tapos na ang Pasko!!! anu ba yan!

hay nako, oh well. at least i got something from my ninong at Christmas. Di ako na-zero
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Watching a live concert of Gackt on WOWOW while my mom went to church for the Christmas mass. We’ll both go to the one at 10 o’clock later together as well. To say my mom is religious is kind of an understatement, I guess. She gets easily pissed off at me when I don’t go to mass, which I find exasperating at times, but heck, I’ve learned to live with it.

It’s almost Christmas, just a few more hours. In my opinion, there’s a lot more hype about Christmas Eve than the actual Christmas day here in our place. Everything goes kinda quiet on Christmas morning, maybe on account that most people are still asleep having been awake all night. Maybe.

This is another year that we’d spend Christmas not having my dad with us. I hope next year would be different.

It's almost Chritmas!!! Been helping out in the kitchen cook for two households' Xmas feast. Ang daming trabaho!!! My hands feel raw from washing all those dishes and casseroles and my wrist are numb from chopping and slicing onions and garlic and assorted vegetables... ahhhhh! But it's ok. Despite the fact that I look forward to Christmas this year, as much as I do every year coz for the sole reason thatit is Christmas and its a holiday and well, supposedly everyone's in a good cheer. Supposedly.

I find myself once again becoming engrossed with El Estrall. I guess I just hate the idea that I have to change some bit about the plot for A.I., yes, again; that's why I've yet again lost interest in writing it. Better jot down the ideas for El Estrall now that I am becoming involved with it again. The hard part that I remember got me irritated with writing thebackground for El Estrall is about the place's mythology. I've some new ideas, and I hope the other gals would like them, or at least approve of them.

I wanted to go to Jean's place today, just to hang out. I'm getting tired of staying here at home doing absolutely nothing worthwhile. Gods in heaven help me... I AM SO DARNED BORED!!! Yet again that's the main reason why I keep on writing on this blog. It's become a record of my extremely boring existence...

Anyway, I didn't end up going. Instead my aunt, her sister and I went to Clark Field this morning to, what else, SHOP!!! Some stuff are cheaper there, especially chocolates. My mom told me to by some so we could hand them out to kids who come visit at our home during Christmas morning... sorta something like Trick or Treat without the kids saying "trick or treat" and instead saying "mano po". Children, ranging from two-years-old to thirty plus - mga feeling bata pa - usually come to our house asking for aguinaldo every Christmas morning and I guess my mom's not gonna do the usual cash-giving thing this year. *shrug* Don't care.

I haven't done my Chritmas shopping yet myself, I doubt if I would. I wouldn't be able to hand over the gifts I'll be buying to the people I intend them for until next year anyway, so why bother?

I justrealized I don't even know all of my inaanaks. Lousy godmother that I am, I admit it so, but I really cannot remember who all of my godchildren are right now. Me very baaaaaaddddd... tsk, tsk, tsk... ^_^

Watching a rerun of the Amazing Race on AXN; and I just can’t get over the fact that Terri called her husband, Ian, a “shmuck”!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!!!!!! She's absolutely right. He IS one.

Oh lordie... Flo and Zack won... um, good for Zack? heheheh... he's a nice guy.

I WANNA GO TO PARIS!!!

List of reasons:

1) Tour! Tour! Tour!!! I wanna go to all the historical places there, get a feel of the place, and maybe even live there for a month to half a year. Kinda hard when I don't speak a word of French but then I'll probably get by with my English anyway for it IS the international language, right?

2) I really NEED to get a feel of how it is to live there for research purposes for A.I.

3) I wanna get out of this god-forsaken country!!!

And I'm running out of reasons, really... I just wanna go there.

Been watching The Amazing Race’s 2nd to the last leg of the race. Flo really ticks me off. She’s so emotional! Moo swinging from extreme to extreme; it makes the whole game fun to watch but she truly is irritating. It’s quite fortunate for her that her partner, Zack, is so optimistic and has so much patience for her moods that it doesn’t seem to faze him much even when she tells him she already wants to quit. If I wanted their team to win, I’d want them to win because of Zack, not Flo.

The brothers Ken and Gerard also tick me off. They're quite devious, which is good for them I guess because it helps them in staying in the race, but they truly tick me off. Kasi ang parang "plastic" nila.

The oldest remaining team, Ian and Terri, are the ones I kinda want to win. The reason I feel so is that I think they most deserve it, especially Terri. Why? So she could get home to their kids, that's all. If they lose the race, then I think Ian deserves just that because he's so frickin' bossy!!!

I wonder who's gonna win though... I don't really care, I don't particularly have a favorite right now.

I just thought about something... it isnt anything profound, mind you. It's just that somthing in what I've been reading recently made me think about Truth.

It seems that the more a person is given to lying, the more I think he appreciates the truth. It's like a symbol of something he lacks, a wish for something he could not attain because he has trapped himself in a web of deceit that is his own doing and that try as he might, he couldn't practice telling the truth for it would make his whole world collapse. And he probably is terrified of the thought that his world can change so drastically once the truth IS out. Truth, maybe, is some sort of amulet for him that he carries around hidden inside himself, and only he himself knows it for what it is: ugly, unyielding reality. Ugly because it couldn't be anything else; for if it wasn't something horrible, why hide it in the first place? It's rather odd to think about it this way, but I think liers are people who appreciate truth most since they know how precious it actually is...

It's nothing really, just rambling on about something not really worth wasting my time on. But then I have quite a lot of time to waste because I'm not really doing anything worthwhile, am I?

I am about to take a step that could irrevocably lead me to jail if what I am about to do is ever found out... of course that being the case, I won't put here exactly what it is I am about to do. That's sheer idiocy if I did that. Well, I hope I won't ever have to actually use this thing I am about to make, for it is dangerous only to myself. But then, for some candid reason, I don't really care about myself these days. I just don't know why. It's like I am in a kind of stasis and I am just waiting for something to happen to take me out of that said state. I am a rather impatient person and I absolutely hate waiting for anything or anybody to arrive, and maybe that is the reason why I am about to take this step. Because I am bored. Nothing is happening in my life that I can consider an adventure. That is why I am making one, although it is not necessarily a fun kind of adventure to undertake. It is almost like I am hankering to ruin my life so I can have a life; is that too hard to understand? Anyway, we shall see what will happen. If I ever don't update this blog in more than six months, then please assume that something did happen to me. I just don't know if it will be for the good or for the bad. I hope in my case it'll be the former and not the latter.

Currently reading: Raymond E. Feist's MAGICIAN: MASTER
Last ate: walnut-topped brownies

Hmmmm... this is kinda new. Just trying out if this would look neat and be easy enough to use as an online journal. I'll probably link this to the main site later when I update that one. As of now, the only people that know of its existence is me and the blogger.com people... whoever they are ^_^

Btw, I just came back from Manila. Went to ADMU to see if my transcript and diploma are available. They aren't yet.

Bought the second book of Feist's RiftWar Saga: Magician: Master. As far as I know, it's all about Pug. And to think he isn't my favorite Feist character. Emma, if you're for some reason able to read this, try collecting all the Feist books; the stories are pretty neat, sides the fact that they let us have a glimpse of Krondor again. Remember that computer game? By the way, I have it here in Pampanga. Tell me when I can meet you so I can return it, k? And please give me back my R.Jordan Wheel of Time game cds? I wanna play that already ^_^0

What else? Oh, yes... I also bought two Purefoods Fiesta Cooked Ham for my mom. It's a Christmas tradition of ours to serve this ham, bulalo, bread, fruit salad, and some other assorted ulam.

Listening to this blasted GooGoo Dolls song again. I'm getting tired of Iris...