Hay nako, the reality is, konti pa yung 1 is to 50 na ratio ng nurse to patient sa mga hospitals dito sa 'pinas. Sometimes, on certain days aabot pa yun ng 80+

Just finished my 3-day duty sa JBL Provincial Hospital and the reality of health care here in our country still has me reeling from dismay. Our NOD was the only nurse in the Ortho Ward. He was in charge of 51 patients on the 1st day, nadagdagan pa the next two days. I don't know how he does it, how he manages to have time to see to the care of 50+ patient. From what I saw, he spends around 5 or so minutes per patient, wherein he checks the chart, asks how they're feeling, gives the meds and documents what he did. Most of the caring comes from the "bantay" who stays with the patient around the clock.

There are around 6 patients sharing a room, minsan pag wala ng available bed sa mga rooms naiiwan sa corridors yung pasyente. Nakahiga siya sa bed, dinadaan-daanan ng lahat. One ward, nicknamed Scuttari, had a patient with femure fracture lying next to one who's post-op mastectomy and next to them is one with TB. Halu-halo... gawds, imagine the infection...

Nakakapagod. To think I was put in charge of one patient lang for the entire day and pagod na pagod na ako. I really can't imagine what it would be like if I had to be in charge of 50+.

Pero even if that's the case, sa end of the 1st day of duty nung paalis na ko, my patient (a 68 year old grandmother) held my hand and thanked me and parang nawala yung pagod ko when I looked at her face at that moment. Made me want to learn more so I'd know how to properly care for people I'll be in charge of in the future.

This experience really put things in perspective sakin coz I've realized yet again how god darned lucky I am compared to others, and the little care I can give to ease their pain is really so easy to give if I only gave enough time and effort to do it.

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Savior, huh? Well, she wasn’t that effective was she? I don’t think I like being Padme, nor do I like the idea of being someone’s savior. It’s just too big a responsibility to be responsible for someone’s soul.

Watched Star Wars last Saturday (May 21, 2005). Ngayon lang ako nakapost about it coz ngayon lang nabalik yung dial tone ng landline namin. Freak thunderstorm probably hit a wire or two kaya ayun, nawalan kami ng use of both phones for an entire week. Anyways, I knew enough not to expect a happy ending from the movie but still... isn’t it sad that Anikin ended up trying to kill the very person he turned to the dark side for to save? La lang. It’s just sad. But I wish they delivered it in a better way. The movie’s quite disappointing, masyadong mabilis yung change scenes. You barely get the feel for the characters’ emotions before they change scene na. The pacing is just too fast.

It isn’t just that, it sucks in other departments as well, the dialogue for one. Gawds, were they ever sooo cheesy and cliché and predictable. Plus the use of shadows for Anakin, him staying in the shadows as he talks to his mentors, etc. They played that up too much. I guess it’s understandable considering the entire movie’s about how he turned to the dark but they could have been more subtle about it.

Overall, the Episode 3 was a bit of a disappointment. Wasn’t even planning to watch it at first but I felt kinda obligated to coz I watched the first two.

After Star Wars, I watched the movie I went to the mall for: Kingdom of Heaven. Orlando Bloom did well in his role, although isn’t it funny that he ended up having a role that resembled Aragorn of LotR so much? Makes me wonder how well he would have done if he and Vigo whatever-his-surname-is exchanged roles; would he have made a decent Aragorn and would Vigo look alright as an elf?

I loved KoH compared to SW Ep3. Although I heard a guy complaining about how Balian surrendered Jerusalem. He didn’t like the idea, I guess, and wanted more fight scenes. Masyado daw pacifist itong character ni Bloom kaya tuloy siya yung naging talunan sa laban. I disagree. Balian won, coz he did manage to met the goal he set, why he fought for the city in the first place. And he found peace and a measure of happiness in the end, which I think is what he joined the Crusaders for.

I loved this particular scene in the end when Saladin took that fallen cross from the floor and placed it back on a table. Why can’t people in real life do the same? I mean, just respect other people’s religion and quit claiming theirs is the best and only way to heaven. They don't have to go out of their way and degrade other's religion by trying to convert them to theirs; it just fosters hate when they do that. Anyway, back to the movie review...

Technicality wise, had a few gripes about the way some characters mumbled their lines. I know, I know... they’re probably speaking with an accent but still, they could have spoken a bit more clearly. But that’s my only gripe about the entire movie really.

I like how they didn’t scrimp on the authenticity of the costumes, the setting, even the blood spilt during all those fight scenes. I love the attention to small details like that. Camera angles were well executed especially during the battles; dialogue was not at all cheesy nor usual (Balian’s dad was especially subtle with his dialogues.)

And I love love love Saladin’s character. And I totally can understand how something can actually mean nothing yet also be worth everything at the same time.

I am just soooo in love with this picture right now. By Sandara Tang (http://sandara.net) called Enten to Hoshi. Found it on her website as well as her epilogue.net account. Her artwork's really just too BEAUTIFUL for words. I am just so envious! Wish I could be that good with art, especially the way she uses watercolors! 

Can you ever truly fall out of love with things and people that once filled your heart with so much love? Or does the feeling just simply fade away to rest inside your heart, untouched, until something triggers its return to the surface and you realize that it was always there, that it was never lost?

I feel like that right now about things I used to love so much in the past... I'm reminiscing on years gone past, wishing they had not ended but happy nonetheless for the time spent in them. I wish I could go back. I wish I could do things differently. But then I would not be the person that I am today if I did that. I am happy with who and what I am right now. If I really think about it, I would not change anything ^_^

Wahhh! Why am I feeling so melancholy?!

Watching a David Bowie special/documentary in WOWOW. Am sooo glad he didn't die of drugs back in the 70s ^^ it would have been horribly cliché if he did.

Went to sleep early last night coz I had a raging migraine. After being so hyper the whole day too...

Swimming reunion with 2E was cancelled. Yung mga nag-organize yung mismong nagback out e.

I've yet to do my RD. Di ako natawag kahapon e. Mukhang mahirap.. pero for some reason, I'm not as stressed about it as I was with the first RD 2 sems ago. Ewan, should I be?


Here's another quiz: nakuha ko from Cheena's blog.

Your True Birth Month Is November

Patient Secretive Romantic Inquisitive Trustworthy Determined Hardworking High-spirited High abilities Unpredictable Never give up Sharp thinking Thinks forward Always thinking Motivates oneself Loves to be alone Has a lot of ideas Difficult to fathom Extraordinary ideas Unique and brilliant Brave and generous Well-built and tough Careful and cautious Dynamic in personality Deep love and emotions Uncertain in relationships Honest and keeps secrets Can become good doctors Less talkative but amiable Stubborn and hard-hearted Fine and strong clairvoyance Not able to control emotions Does not appreciates praises Thinks differently from others If there is a will, there is a way Hardly become angry unless provoked Knows how to get secrets out of others

What's Your True Birth Month?

Not surprising. I like being born in November. It's a very nice month. I always know it's Novemeber where I live coz the talahibs have grown really high na and they always wave with the wind everytime I see them. I also like November coz there's this sense of waiting and anticipation for the holidays that comes with it. Also the sense of wanting to hurry and finish things coz the year's almost at an end. I feel kinda sad and happy when it's November. Makes me realize that things can't stay the same, and that I have to accept that certain things will end no matter what I do, but that I should take the time that I have now, grasp that opportunity coz I would never know when things will finally end.

Just some online quizzes. Don't have much time to post and rant. May RD ako tomorrow. Ja~

Your Birthdate: November 26

Your birth on the 26th day of the month (8 energy) modifies your life by increasing your capability to function and succeed in the business world. In this environment you have the skills to work very well with others thanks to the 2 and 6 energies combining in this date. There is a marked increase in organizational, managerial, and administrative abilities. You are efficient and handle money very well. You're ambitious and energetic, while generally remaining cooperative and adaptable. You are conscientious and not afraid of responsibility. Generally sociable and diplomatic, you tend to use persuasion rather than force. You have a wonderful combination of being good at both the broad strokes and the fine detail; good at starting and continuing. This birthday is practical and realistic, often seeking material satisfaction.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Me practical?! Me realistic?! And materialistic?! Ah well, I kinda have to be, just a bit considering the times... And all this time I thought that being a fire element and from the year of the monkey makes me as impulsive as hell and very impractical.
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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Quite mature of me, or is it?
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Your Political Profile

Overall: 20% Conservative, 80% Liberal

Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

How Liberal / Conservative Are You?

So I'm more liberal than I thought I was... interesting.

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Sachi Ichijo

What's your Japanese Name?

So it's not as bad as I thought it was. Wonder what the coming day will do? Will it help or make things take another step back? There was a definite backsliding to former roles that I could not help but fall into considering the situation, but like I said, it's not as bad as I thought. Hayyy... here's to hoping that nothing untowards happens.

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Okay, that said, on to more understandable posts:

We have around two or three more concepts to take up before summer finals. The Medications Concept's pretty neat. They're teaching us how to inject IM, IV, ID, and SQ, as well as how to place a NGT, give blood transfusion, stuff we really NEED to know if we want to ever pass as nurses ^^0

Thing is, getting injected isn't that painful. Mas psychological pa yung sakit, kasi you're anticipating that there's pain pero yung actual injection okay lang, kayang-kayang tiisin.

Mom and Ate My don't wanna agree to be my guinea pigs/test subjects/pinagpapractisan. I understand, but I need to practice with somebody acting as the patient. Mahirap kasi sa sarili ko tutuhugin yung syringe, di ako makapagpractice ng right technique ng mabuti that way.

Anybody wanna volunteer? It really doesnt hurt that much. Promise! ^_^

Hay nako, as usual, since it's not my trusty Gen-chan I'm using, napindot ko nanaman po ang power off button ng keyboard nitong school pc na I'm using. Banas. Ba't kasi tinabi-tabi nila sa delete button yun e... *grumble*

Anyways, finally finally got done with James' glamour pix that I owed Nechan. Next off would be one of the girls, then David's then one of the girls again, then Rushkins, then the last of the girls. I sooooo want to draw David's as in right now, but I'm at school... if alam ko lang na di darating prof namin and I'd have free time from 730 til 230 hindi na sana ako pumasok ng first subject haaaaaaaayyyy...

As it is, here I am wasting time sa lib with this unfamiliar pc na walang ka-karakter-karakter. I already miss my temperamental Gen-chan! ^^0

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Pansin ko lang, pag talagang suot ko itong uniform na to mas madali kong nahahagilap taong yun... weird. la lang. ja na!

TagBoard Answers: (I'm putting them here coz there's a 200character limit per post and I don't wanna spam my own tagboard^^)

Ana-nechan!!! Gomen gomen gomen, hontou ni gomen na sai!!! I know I said I'll meet you online, but I fell asleep ^^0 Di nga ako nakapag-aral for the unit test we had the next day e, buti na lang medyo madali lang yung test ^^0 So very very very sorry po, I hope you'll forgive me. Still can't text coz I haven't had the time to go out and buy load for my phone yet.


Nivla! Hey ho! Thanks for tagging ^_^ Ne, ano na nangyari dun sa Encantadia? I don't have any ideas na apart from the commercials I see during the afternoon or '24Oras' coz I'm either too asleep or am too busy studying *coughcrammingcough* so I never have any time to watch it anymore. Were there any improvements in the acting? I hope so talaga kasi sayang naman, lalo na pinagkagastusan nila yung series na yan.


Tomodachi-san: Errr, make that super frustrated artist/writer heheh ^^0 Frustrated coz I've got no extra/free time apart from the usual doodle or sketches. But thanks for saying my artwork's nice ^^ And no, my head's not about to get any bigger any time soon so no worries there hehehe ^^


Seika-chan!!! Waaaaahh! Miss yah na!! New blog?! Where? Ano url? Di na ba yung dati? Tagal na kasi nun na di naa-update e... Ano na balita? Grabe, we're all overdue for a reunion, ne? Kainis naman kasi ala akong matinong vacation time so I can invite you guys for at least another weekend stay here, pati kasi mga weekends ko occupied with groupwork/studying for unit exams and whatnot na school connected pa rin more or less. That or my mom has me joining her and Tita Betty for trips to the mall, pero apart from that haaaay... Ngak, how'd I end up ranting? Anyways, Seika, help mo si Ana-Nechan with the miko-david scenes coz it seems those two boys of yours are giving her a hard time ^^

Here's a 15minute sketch/doodle I did of one of my classmates while we were reviewing for the Micro midterms, I titled it Lost Boy coz that's my nickname for him wehehehe ^^ Oist, Gaza! I told you I'd post this here, LOLZ hahahaha!!! 

Been sick. Enough of that.

It's still our midterms. I have one more, err... make that two more exams tomorrow. Just taking a bit of a break from the reviewing to post this.

Watched the new GMA7 soap, the supposed telefantasia they call Encantadia's first episode. The idea is novel and the costumes are really nice, but that's just about all the positive things I can say about it. The acting is atrocious, so's the directing and camera angles and fight scenes that are so obviously fake fake fake *grumble* Hay... I won't rant about it anymore.

The soccer anime GMA was showing is gone now. Sayang, didn't see how it went. I liked the white-haired goalie though I keep forgetting his name ^^0

They put in Orphen instead. Tagal na nito ah... ngayon lang pinalabas, grabe. Kasi naman ulit sila ng ulit sa mga old anime nila na pumatok sa audience eh, can't say I blame them, but really... there are so many other anime series that are also really good out there, dapat bigyan naman ng chance mga yun especially the new ones.

Not that I get the chance to watch them regularly. Hay... I need a short break from school. A short vacation where I won't get sick ~_~0

The april fic is late yet again. I've still one scene left to write before I can upload and submit it. The James pic I owe Ana-nechan still has that rather unappealing background image that I still wanna change but I can't find the right image to use.

Had a hair cut. My hair looks like Maya's if I have it blowdried and straightened.

Speaking of Illu, heard Ana-nechan's having probs with the Miko-David scenes, hope those two boys'll give you less trouble Nechan! I wanna read chap 15 and 16 and 17 and so on na! Although I know I've no right to demand anything considering all my fic submissions are late ^^0

Re-edited my notes for A.I. kaya ayun di nanaman akma yung 1st chapter and book and well, just about everything about it. I decided to change a few details like setting and other stuff that turned out to be quite central to how I wrote the thing before. I have to redo that story yet again. Dunno why I keep doing that. Never happy with the way it is, and I always get blocked somewhere. I hope the new edits and details will help out considering they'd be easier for me to relate to and I wont have to research too much anymore since I don't have time. I'll prolly never post A.I. as text... if I ever get the chance and time (which I'll have to make really and squeeze into my sched) I'd make A.I. into a manga/comics or graphic novel or something a bit like Sandman if I had the talent ^^0 At least that's my wish. I dunno if I'll ever get to do it though.

I realized my 3 most favorite food items in the whole culinary world are the 3 Cs: Coffee, Cheese, and Chocolates. I'm mad for almost anything and everything that has those things in their ingredients, and the stronger the coffee, the tangier the cheese and the more bitter the chocolate the better for me. Haaay, I wanna go to Europe and shop for all three ^^0

Napansin nyo? Ala talaga akong alam isulat. Me just typing away, trying to post just about anything. I feel kinda lethargic, like I'm half awake and half inside a dream.

Oh yeah, one last thing: Tomodachi-san, can I please have your email add or website/blog url so I can link you up... that is, if it's alright with you?