Almost forgot to post this... told Ana-nechan about Bleach and promised her I'd show her the picture of this shinigami. Nechan! The guy I was telling you about, remember? The one that I said reminded me of Saitoh (of RK), is the guy with the eyepatch, the one on the extreme left. He is Zaraki Kenpachi, the Captain of the 11th Division in Soul Society, a town filled with shinigamis. He's supposedly frighteningly strong, but before this pic (taken from chapter 143) he was defeated by Ichigo (the main character).

Errr... sorry, was that a spoiler? Guess it was... Haven't exactly watched the anime so I dunno if I just blurte out something I shouldn't have ^^0

Anyway, Ichigo's the orange-haired guy, Abarai Renji's the redhead with the funky tattoos, and the white haired kid who looks like Killua... erm... what was his name again? Wait... umn, Hitsugaya Toushiro. Yeah that's it. But I kinda don't remember which Division is he in charge of, but he is another Captain. Renji's a Vice Captain though. Ichigo's human so he doesn't exactly have any Division to belong to, at least that's as far as I know.

Death... then Life

Drinking: Twinings Vanilla Flavoured Black Tea w/ milk
Watching: Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
Downloading: Bleach (manga scanlation: Chapter 142)
Supposedly doing: typing a group paper for pharmacology due on Monday

Thursday, our last day at Balitukan District Hospital in Magalang, was hectic. We were in charge of the OPD in the morning, taking the vital signs of walk-in patients and then assisting the resident physicians examine the same patients for various (ranging from the usual cough and colds to mumps, thypoid fever, knife wounds, etc...) complaints. We then made rounds along the wards with another doctor and chanced on one giving a 66-year old woman an ECG. We watched and assisted in the procedure, learning where and how to put the instruments on the patient's chest then being taught what those squiggly lines on the paper meant. We left and took a break for lunch, and when we got back, we heard that the old woman who we saw had died of a heart attack. Myocardial Infarction, the same doctor in charge of her told us, shaking his head. We went back to her room and found her covered with white blanket, her bantay sitting quietly at her bedside with her eyes red. We said our condolences and left, mostly shaking our heads at how fast things happened. Then Kuya Dayao said something that didn't really sink in until now, he said, "Grabe no, ang bilis lang ng buhay ng tao."

It bothers me now because I feel we were too cold, too detached about the whole situation. True, she wasn't our patient, I don't even know what her name was. None of us in the group looked anywhere near saddened about her death because we simply didn't know her. Or maybe we were all just suppressing it, the sadness that we refused to feel and show to the others. It is just thought-provoking that after learning of what happened, it took us mere minutes before we were all laughing again, telling each other jokes. No one spoke about the old woman again the rest of the day. She was seemingly forgotten.

Being forgotten, I think, is the worst part about dying. I want people to miss me, I want them to grieve for losing me. It's rather selfish, but that's the way I feel. I do want them to move on with their lives without me, but I don't want to be forgotten. I hate the very idea.

This is why I feel bad for her, the old woman, because I'm guilty of doing to her the very thing that I'd hate to be done to me.


Later in the afternoon, I was chosen to assist three of my groupmates in the Delivery Room. After the first baby was delivered, Sir Aaron (our C.I. for last week) told me to be in charge of the cleaning, cord care, and dressing of the second baby (his name's Ian Calma. I know coz I asked his mother what she'll name him when I took him for rooming-in). I did quite well, I think. Didn't feel as nervous as when I helped care for Curt (refer to my July 21 post). Then helped with another baby, this one a girl whose name I didn't get to find out. Ian and the baby girl were just too CUTE for words ^_^ My groupmates were shaking their heads at me for being so ecstatic and all smiles while I was holding and caring for them. I was wearing a smile during the ride home, and though I was so tired from work I still had enough energy to tell my mom about my day, specifically about the babies, when I got home.

Thing is, I didn't tell her about the old lady's death that night. I told her the next day and she merely told me to pray for the old woman's soul.

It's just so weird... and I dunno... ironic. That I went through the extreme contrast of life in one day. Experienced a death, then helped bring out new lives... And as I sit here now, remembering all their faces, the old woman and the babies, I can't help but feel sad and happy at the same time and marvel about life.

Anyway, enough about the philosophical chatter, here are a few online quizzes I answered recently:

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Ululani Kekona

What's your Hawaiian Name?

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest: You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary. At Your Lowest: You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in. In Love: You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated. How You're Attractive: Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room. Your Eternal Question: "What else do I need in my life?"

What's Your Power Color?

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Genius Executor of Sacrifices. Where You Lived: Peru. How You Died: Dysentery.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 66% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

Just a pic of me and my RLE groupmates inside the dressing area of the Delivery Room at Dr. Emigdio V. Cruz Sr. District Memorial Hospital, Arayat, Pampanga. We didn't have much to do but wait for women to go in labor so we took this time to take pictures. Next to me is Kuya Dayao, sitting is Diana, above her is Lizette, next is Lory, Franette and Michael, at the back are Jess and Shielney. Sir Bucad, our C.I. for the week, took the pic that's why he isn't in it, obvious ba? 

Took another look at Stephanie Law's gallery (http://www.shadowscapes.com) recently and am glad to say that she has more of her Tarot Card designs up. Can't wait for the whole set to be done coz I'm thinking of ordering one ^^ So far my favorite is this one, The Tower; mainly coz it reminds me of Escaflowne and Lord of the Rings ^^ A close second is The Lovers and third of my favorites is Death. 

Procrastinating
What I'm doing: Cramming (homework & reviewing for the prelim)
What I'm eating: low-fat milk, whole-grain cereals (Cheerios), and a banana
What I'm listening to: a bird chirping outside my window
What I'm wearing: blue shorts and blue top (pantulog)


Why the darned hell am I feeling so lazy!?!? I have prelim exams later this morning and during the afternoon, but did I study? Did I? Nooooo... What did I do the whole weekend? I watched my old copies of Nadesico and Omishi Magical Theater, that's what! Gaaahhh... sinayang ko yung tatlong araw! Nasa huli talaga pagsisisi! Pucha! Whatever!

I'm skipping my first period to finish up some assignments; tapos mabilisang pagpunta sa school ang gagawin ko, coz I cant afford to miss my Pharmacology prelims.

So what am I doing posting in my blog?! I myself dunno!!!! Waaaahhh!!! I don't wanna go to school today, that's why! Di ba declared na ala na rin pasok dito? Pucha naman kasi si PGMA ba't sa Metro Manila lang dineclare na alang pasok e!

What kind of Final Fantasy Character would I be? by TheBlueParadox
Your Name/Handle
Your Hair Style	Beautiful Flowing White Hair
Your Clothing Style	Loose Clothing/Primary Colors
Your Weapon of Choice	White Magic
Your Mission	To Defeat My Evil Father.
Your Role in the Fantasy	Hero turned Villian.
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Here's the class pic from our recent capping ceremony; I got more pix but i'll just put them up in flickr; too lazy to make individual posts of each pix in the blog.  

Helped deliver my first baby last Tuesday. His name is Curt Ortega; a name I will forever remember. He was somewhat small, though regular sized at 3.1kg; he came into the world with a loud cry that had us relieved coz it was a great sign that he'll be fine.

It felt so weird holding him; he was so small, so fragile that I was afraid that I'd hurt him. But it felt nice to hold him coz it was like holding a little miracle, and though he smelled awful and was dirty as hell (coz of the amniotic fluid, vernix caseosa and blood), he looked like an angel to me ^^

Anyway, today we'd still be assigned at the Deliver Room of the District Hospital at Arayat. Hope I can assist again but this time, be the one to deliver the placenta. Iba talaga pag actual.

MWAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!! I know, I know... it's sacrilegious at the least but really just thinking about the GW boys in those sailor suits let alone actually seeing a picture of them in those suits... *rotflol* Pero in fairness, ok yung pagka-edit ng pix (di po ako gumawa, ok? So don't kill me); Gawds... Heero as SailorMoon... and the expression on his face in this pic... @-@0 Sorry boys ^^0 

My head's all crammed up with generic and brand names for medicines I only heard about this week. Add the fac that we need to learn about their effects -therapeutic and adverse- dosage, route, indication, and nursing considerations for patients taking them... it's quite a lot. And I'm soooo not good with memorizing too. Taihen da na...

Our first week of hospital duty went pretty well. We were assigned at the Ward of SLDH so we got varous types of cases to handle; mix and match kasi mga wards dun, the hospital has four wards: OB, Female, Male and Pedia. We handled all four @-@ Kahit na may naka-assign samin na 1 lang na patient, we can't just ignore the other patients who were asking our assistance. So ayun, yung kawawa naming C.I. (Sir Bucad) got literally swamped ^^0 coz he had to oversee every little thing we do coz liscence niya nakataya if we did something wrong ^^0

Next week we'll be assigned to the Delivery Room of the hospital at Arayat. I'm nervous and excited about it. The downside nga lang isa that we won't be handled by one of my favorite C.I.s anymore coz of the change in hospital assignments. Hay sayang, ah well... at least we'll get to handle neonates ^^ That's what's making me so nervous @-@0

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Seika-chan! Heard from Ana-nechan that you were trying to contact me? Sensya na if the phone wasn't answered coz nakaconnect yun sa modem e. What did you need to ask me about? Can I still help?

Start of our duty later. 6:15am call time, buti na lang di sa hospital mismo coz I don't bleeding know how to go there.

Ang lalayo ng lahat ng na-assign na hospitals sa group namin!! Waaaah!!! Some are like at the most northern end of Pampanga, eh hello?! Taga-Apalit lang naman po ako and kami po pinaka-South na area ng Pampanga na tipong last town kami na dadaan bago Bulacan, tapos yung 1 naming hospital duty sa 1 sa pinaka-north na town bago Tarlac @-@

Hello?! Wala akong idea how to get there!!!

Sabi ni Tito Toto it takes around 1&1/2 - 2 hours depende sa traffic. Just think like this, para kang pumunta from SM North Edsa to Enchanted Kingdom... at least I think it's kinda like that, except for the super notorious traffic diyan sa Greater Manila Area... haaaaayyy...

Wish me luck! Hope I won't do any major mistakes. Alam ko magkakamali ako with something, pero I hope it won't be anything major, so... Ganbare ne, Feifu!!!

Wai! I aced the RD! Finally got my turn yesterday and literally laughed my way into a high grade Oh-ho-ho-ho ^0^

Aside from that, there's the usual bevy of group projects, individual assignments and cramming for exams that I still have to cope up with. All part and parcel of being a student, I guess, but dang, bakit ba hindi nauubusan ang mga prof/C.I.s ng ibibigay na trabaho? *sigh*

Officially, I'm one of the "Student Coordinators" for Nightingale, pero I'm supposed to be the Assistant EIC. Truth is, my job's as a gofer and errand girl wahahahaha ^^0 And medyo lang tagahabol ng mga tao and making-kulit of them to please join our org coz we're severely mortally understaffed ^^0 Comes with trying to revive a long-dead school organ, I guess. Ewan ba't sumali-sali pa ko. It's not as if I don't have enough things to do. But it's kinda fun kahit na hassle, so it's alright. I like doing this job.

Wasted the entire Thursday waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting... for my turn to come up for the Return Demo for Neonatal Care. It never came. Went home, feet aching coz all the classrooms where occupied by the C.I.s and students who were doing their RD so we had to stay at the corridors waiting waiting waiting waiting.

Didn't I mention before that one of my most hated things to do is wait? So you can just imagine my total irritation that entire day.

By the time it was 4pm, I was ready to go home. We were allowed to go home coz our group C.I. wasn't around anyway (dunno what happened to Mam Flores but she was absent that day and we -our group- was told to ask other C.I.s to take us in so to speak). Mam Ana Mae Cunanan told us that we could do the RD with her, halinhinan kami with the group she was handling. So she took our baby doll, the one I borrowed from a ex-classmate coz she was already done with her own RD the day before, and used that doll for the entire day. Trouble was, with each person taking up around 30minutes to 1 hour, it was pretty obvious I wasn't going to have my turn, considering inuna niya yung group niya and all, so my groupmates and I spoke to another C.I. since patapos na rin naman siya with his group, if he'd take us in. Sir Sancho agreed, kaso we had to use our own material/equipment coz his group already took theirs back. So went back to Mam Ana Mae to get back our doll. She flatly refused to give the bloody doll back. She made us wait for it for soooo long, umuwi na tuloy si Sir Sancho.

Grrrrr... I really really wanted so badly to hit her or tear off her hair. Kundi lang siya C.I... grrrrrr!!! Really! She was just soooooooooo unreasonable! Pinaghiram ko na siya ng ibang doll, at tiningnan lang niya minsan and pronounced, "Ayoko yan, ang pangit!" Pucha talaga!!! Nakakairita siya!!!

So Sir Sancho went home na, no other C.I. wanted to have us do the RD with them coz they were already too tired, and I STILL couldn't go home coz Mam Ana Mae still wouldn't let me have that bloody bleeding stupid doll na akin naman technically since I was the one responsible for it coz ako nga yung naghiram! AAAAAAAAAEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!! She was seriously truly soooo irritating! And irrational! And just plain bitchy!

Grrrrrrrrrrr.............

So Friday came, went to school again even though I didn't have class for that day. Went to my meeting with Vinnie and Sir Farley for the Nightingale. Meeting went well naman. Then went to McDo intersection to meet up with my Pharmacology groupmates. Di sila sumipot. Well, to be fair to Shielney, dumating siya bringing two very heavy very thick pharcology books around 30 minutes later. We waited for our other groupmates, only to have them text us that sorry but they couldn't come. To think this meeting was their idea...

I absolutely positively HATE ABHOR DESPISE waiting!!! Lalo na if the only recourse I have to take my mind off boredom is stare in space.

Maybe that's why I went to SM after our "group meeting" and watched a movie and bought another overpriced book from National Book Store. Gah... The end of the week certainly wasn't good for me.