State of Calamity

Sure there are floods which cause the travel time to school to double, and some roads are just unpassable, but here at home we haven't really felt the effects of the typhoon. I didn't even know that they've declared that Pampanga's in a state of calamity until Ana-nechan texted me (of course I couldn't text her back coz I ran out of load). But because of the storm we haven't had classes since Monday, not that we don't go to school or duty only to learn once we get there that classes/duty have been cancelled for the day. Vexing that.

What have I been doing since Monday? Aside from griping about not having internet access coz the phonelines and signal are continually up then down and gone and then there again? I've been trying to finish our thesis. Hazel, Seig and Nhey will be coming later this afternoon to help out so we could pass this tomorrow or Monday if we don't have classes again tomorrow...

We are sooooooo behind the other sections when it comes to our lecture. We meet once a week for our NCM104 lecture and well, the past two Wednesdays haven't been spent on discussion. I heard the other sections are halfway done with the topic (Fluids and Electrolytes) and here we haven't even started! I should freak out but then I'm treating this as a challenge to myself... I'm trying to self-study the darn topic. So far I understand the process of how F&E get distributed inside the human body as well as comprehend what happens when there's an imbalance of anything (be it Na, K, Ca, Ph, Mg, pH, fluid...), it's just the memorization of all those blasted normal values that have my mind going haywire. I'll get over it eventually.

Mom had a slight fever going early this week but she's ok now. She still didn't go get herself checked by our doctor like I asked her to. She can be stubborn about her health at times and it could get irritating coz what's the point of me studying nursing when my own mother won't even listen to me when I know for a fact that what I'm suggesting for her to do makes sense?

The issue about Kuya Tan is yet to be resolved. I really agree with Fr. Larry and Fr. Jerry's suggestion of Tito Susing cutting him off from their financial aid. Come on, he's what, 34? And he's still living at his parents' house (granted they're not in the country and have no plans of coming back as far as I know), he has two children from two different women, he doesn't have a job, he's separated with Ate Rhea (his wife) but still has sex with her whenever they both feel like it, he has (from the last count) two mistresses (one of whom has a child and husband of her own!), he's trying to form a (rock?) band with his barkada, feeds and financially supports said band, and spends 50,000+php in less than two weeks. How he does that I don't wanna know about. It just ticks me off that because of his behavior mom gets stressed out and well, disturbed at work. Imagine-nin nyo naman, naghahanap/nangungutang/naghihingi mga katulong ni Kuya habang nagtuturo mom ko! Talk about istorbo! Sino ba naman di mapupuno at mapipikon na sa ganong behavior?! And Tita Betty just makes things worse. Gah!!! Mga fuck-shit sila! I hate that they make Ma so pissed off at times coz they drag her into the mess all the fricking time.

Enough about them.

Oh, the prelims are over. The RLE exam was fricking DIFFICULT!!! I hope to high heaven that I passes that considering I eni-mini-mayni-mo-ed at least a dozen questions... *sigh* That's why I'm stressing about the midterm topics (F&E). I think I'll need to boost my grades up because of that blasted prelim test.

Seika: When, you ask? Hmmm... dunno really. Our scheds all don't match up. Haaay...

I Don't...

...Understand why he can ask just about anything from me and I could not say no to his face. I don't wish to do what he asked - hell, begged! - me to do but I couldn't say so directly. It feels awkward telling him no after he all but kneeled while asking. If only it involved other people, anybody other than THAT person... I'd gladly help. But as it is, I feel coerced to give my assistance just because he's the one asking me to help them.

...like Lady in the Water as much as I liked M.Night Shyamalan's other films (The Village, Sixth Sense, Unbreakable, Signs), but if I don't compare it to his other films, then yeah I do think it's a nice movie. No, scratch that. It's not nice; more like thought-provoking, confusing, slightly satirical... reminds of what they say about Russian fairy tales: dark, full of symbolisms, and hard to understand if you don't watch it from the start. In fact, the film fails miserably as a 'summer film' coz billed right next to Superman Returns and Pirates of the Caribbean just makes one think it would contain a plot as loud and action-packed as those two, which it does not. There was a LOT of really quiet moments. Disjointed scenes that made me think that this may be how it is inside a five-year-old's mind while his parents read him a bedtime story; you know... that moment just before sleep as he gets tucked in bed and the light finally shuts off...

Ahoy, MatesI

As you can probably guess I have already watched Pirates of the Carribean 2: Dead Man's Chest; told you I'd watch it first chance I'd get ^_^ Went to the mall yesterday, towing my not-so-light laptop coz I brought it to school to work on the thesis, then around lunchtime went inside the movie theater and just parked my ass on that seat for around six hours coz I didn't wanna leave.

I watched it twice!!! And I still kept on finding it funny even while watching it a second time ^_^0

I love love love Jack Sparrow!

But I have one gripe about the movie... waaaaaaaaaaaaahhh putaragisan bakit BITIN?!?!?!?!?

I want the third movie NOW! As in NOW, TODAY, THIS VERY MINUTE!!! Someone please tell me they're not gonna take another couple of years before the third one?! Coz there were just soooooo many unresolved issues!

1) What happened to Jack? I refuse to think that that man's dead just because he stepped into the mouth of that blasted oversized octupus from hell. If I were the writter I would NOT in any way kill off such a strong, hilarious, mysterious, gawds-can-I-just-keep-him-for-myself intriguing character.

2)Will seeing Elizabeth and Jack kiss. Aw come on, don't tell me you guys didn't see this coming from the first movie? Come to think of it, Jack's pretty much open about how he feels and thinks when it's Elizabeth he's talking to.

3)Norrington (that pathetic SOB) taking the heart and giving it to that equally rotten as hell can-I-just-step-on-screen-for-a-minute-so-I-can-slit-his-throat-and-be-done-with-him villian whose name I don't remember and don't wish to know from the East India Company. But isn't what's his name that guy who wanted to court Lizzie in Pride and Prejudice? Their cousin or something?

4)How in hell's blazes did Barbossa get back from the dead? Ooops... was that too much of a spoiler? Then again if you've read this far I bet you're thinking the first 3 are enough just to spoil the movie, ne? Ok, here's another one...

5)How will William save Bootstrap? Is it just me or do you also think that Jones's crew all look like... well... a collection of trash?

I don't need to tell you guys to watch it, most of you probably already have or are already planning to, but watch it if you're planning to pass it up coz it's just too great and funny to pass up.

Oh... and I didn't watch Superman anymore. By the time I got out of the theater where they were showing Pirates my eyes had already become so sore that I felt a headache starting (from looking at the screen too long plus I skipped lunch) so I ended up not going anymore. Dunno why I'm not that keen about watching it. Maybe one Friday... maybe.

Movie Reruns

I love the cable channel WOWOW (except when they show those really late night rated-X or R movies when I'm forced to look for another channel), mainly because they show fairly decent movies. Just last night they aired Orlando Bloom's Kingdom of Heaven and Jude Law and Natalie Portman's Closer. I won't yap about KoH anymore coz I fairly raved about it before (I still have to buy my own copy... hmmm, so far I've watched every last one of Orlando Bloom's movies... does that make me a fan? Heheh, guess so. I still don't like him that much as Legolas, but he's way cool in KoH as Balian).

Having been able to finally watch the movie “Closer” on cable last night, I couldn’t help but be thankful that I didn’t waste money on 1) movie theater tickets, 2) a DVD or VCD copy of my own. I love love love Jude Law’s roles most of the time and I think he’s a brilliant actor but gawds his character in this movie – Dan is his name – is one pathetic cowardly sod! I wish to heaven that I’d never fall in love if the man I’d fall for was like this. Perhaps the only redeeming quality he has is that he came clean in the end, but of course it came too late. I pitied Alice, Natalie Portman’s character. Hers was the most painful character in the film for she just loved Dan without reservations despite his affair with Anna (Julia Roberts). I mean gawds, I would probably neuter the guy on the spot if he upped and admitted to me that he was having an affair in the almost callous way Dan told Alice! I’d just kill him if he even thought about coming back, especially if he did so after losing his other woman to her husband. Never mind that Alice is a stripper; I think she was the most justified of the four main characters, and that she carried the plot. And I could forgive that she ended up having sex with Anna’s husband, Larry (played by Clive Owen), because the smug SOB’s out for revenge on Dan for sleeping with Anna). Gah! They’re all weird in the head. All four of them. But of all of them I liked Larry the most mainly because he took back what was his and he’s one cool and very direct shmuck. Hmmm… judging from my reaction, maybe I do like the film after all… I still won’t buy a copy of it though. Well, maybe a pirated DVD if the mood hits me.

And no, I ended up not watching Superman. I had a monster of a migraine, because my eyeglasses are at the shop. And to tell the truth my eyes hurt till now and I just know that the longer I stare at the monitor like this the greater the chances of getting another headache later in the day. But anyways, maybe I still would catch Superman later if we don’t have anything to do at school. But I’d watch Pirates2 first! And you don’t need to remind me that Orlando Bloom’s in it too heheheh ^___^

Something Good From The Bad

I know downloading music is illegal, but dang it if I wasn’t doing it I would never have discovered this artist:



Origa (also known as Olga Vitalevna Jakovleva)

My GOD!!! First time I listened to one of her songs, the one titled “We Can Hear Your Pulse” (got it from an mp3 rotation site called Quiet Cacophony, if you wanna listen to the song download it NOW coz it won't be up for long!) I literally got goose bumps and cried! Never mind that I couldn’t understand a single word of the lyrics (coz it’s Russian), but the feeling it evokes... *sigh* I like songs that make me feel like I’m falling from a great height then floating with the wind blowing around my entire body like a gentle lover’s embrace... it’s almost orgasmic.

I wanna buy the entire cd!!! Of course it would be a miracle if the local music stores have even heard of her, let alone be selling her cd. *tortured sigh* Then again I guess I could just buy it online. Right?

I love...

... waking up at this hour in the night. Sure it's too bleeding early, and some would just be getting their asses into bed right about now, but I've already had at least 4 hours of sleep and my head's just too clear and awake to contemplate going back to sleep again. Besides the fact that I need to finish some assignments for duty later today ^_^0 But two NCPs and 4 drug studies isn't that hard to do so here I am blogging.

It must be the training I've been getting, but it seems odd to handle just one patient again. I miss scurrying around trying to cater to toxic patients and their equally trying SOs. Not that I wish my patients are sicker than they already are, heaven forbid coz we are assigned in the pedia ward this week after all... I just wish I'd get more of a challenge coz I learn more that way.

Ahh... I need new frames for my eyeglasses.

And despite what I told Guids, I'm still having second thoughts about watching the new Superman movie. Dunno why... I'm just not that interested. But I'll try to catch it this weekend. Maybe. So far I've only heard good reviews about it from those who already watched it. So I'd probably watch it. Maybe.

Wonder how the heck I'll manage to get the next issue of Nightingale done? Right now I have ziltch on ideas and members/staffers to write any articles I can - through a miracle - hopefully come up with. Ma'am Flores suggested fun trivias, movie and book reviews, entertainment news... Dean Sicat wants it to be formal and informative... how the hell will I combine the two? What theme should we use? What format? We STILL don't have that bleeding logo I've been asking Vinnie and even Atom about for so long now... haaaaaaaaaaaay. Why the heck did Sir Farley frickin' pick me to be the EIC in the first place and why in hell's blazes did I agree I will never fathom.

I don't understand those two. They both have somebody else already but they maintain the farce of being together. The trust isn't there anymore, and they're both hiding what they really feel. Technically speaking they're both just hanging on to each other for the physical benefits, but neither of them would admit to that right now. It's kinda funny yet irritating to watch... if you know who I hang out with lately you'd understand who, to those who don't know: just leave it like that for your peace of mind.

Feeling really lazy

Wednesday:
I was expecting around 16 people to come last Wednesday; my RLE and thesis groupmates mostly. Lucia announced that it was our town's fiesta and she invited EVERYONE during class and promptly said that they should all go to my house. All I could do was scratch my head and hope to heaven the food mom, ate My, and Lola Ising cooked was enough (and it was enough, thank God!) for instead of 16, 27 people came. Imagine my mom's surprise when 2 (very crammed with nursing students) jeepneys stopped in front of our gate ^^0

Thursday:
Hate going first during RDs; I told Sir Farley as much and what does he do but choose me to go first. Irritating cruddy sod... I wanted to hit his head with a brick when he called out my name, but of course I couldn't coz 1) I'm rather fond of this particular prof and 2) he IS a prof after all and it really wouldn't go well with the admin and nursing department if he got injured by a student. Anyways, it went relatively well, although I felt nervous I was able to answer almost all the questions Sir Bucad, Sir Farley and Sir Kit asked... I didn't get scolded when I didn't know something, instead they explained things in a rather calm manner. Sir Farley didn't hit my hand with a deaver or Kelly or retractor (or whatever instrument that was near) as he threatened to do (and did) with the others. It was hilarious watching him and Sir Kit scare the hell out of the others when it was their turn.

Friday:
Was supposed to go meet Mam Sadac but Murphy's Law reared its ugly head when my bowels suddenly went haywire. All I can say is that LBM's a bitch. Enough said.

Saturday:
What to say? It's just around 8am and what have I been doing? Lazing around. Reading Black's chapter on the reproductive system and sexuality coz that's our topic this coming week. Or at least I was trying to read. Got bored so here I am blogging instead. Might go out later to watch Superman. Might not if I get too lazy to go out of the house. It's humid out, wonder if there's still a storm? Really should watch the news more often.

Oh, here are some love quotes for all of you peeps in love out there. Found them some time ago and I keep thinking I should post these on the blog but then I keep forgetting so now that I have actually remembered... anyways, here goes:


"True love doesn't have a happy ending. That's because true love doesn't have an ending."

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, only with what you are expected to give- which is everything."

"It is rare to find a person who not only accepts you for who you are, but makes you proud of what you are."

"Truly loving means letting go of all expectations. It means acceptance, even the celebration of another's personhood."

"Love cures people- both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it."
**this reminds me of Aoshi and Misao**

"Pains of love are far more sweeter than all the pleasures there are."

"We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

"To love someone is to see a miracle invisible to others."

"There are so many stars in the sky, only few are radiant enough to be seen. Among those you choose to ignore is the one willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remains elsewhere."

"Follow your heart. It might not be always right but despite the pain, you'll have memories that will make you smile once and every rare while."

"The tears shed over heartbreaks are the words left unsaid and the deeds left undone."

"Love never grows when it is secretly kept in our hearts. Love will only find it's fulfillment when it finds it's way out and dwells in the heart of the person destined to have it."

"Love isn't blind, it sees but just doesn't mind."

"Love isn't measured with how much you can give- which is only EVERYTHING you've got."


Cheesy, aren't they? ^__________^ Ja ne, minna!