I have no class tomorrow!!! Pero kainis naman kasi server cleanup kung klan ala akong class... oh well... if you guys see me online and yet not answering any of your messages, naglalaro po ako ng ragnarok. kc nakalagay syang full screen so medyo late lagi pag nakikita kong nag-online pala kayo. text me kung ganun para tigil muna ako sa game at kausapin ko naman kayo. heheh... na-hook talaga si feifu, ne? b.i. talaga kasi yang si Jean e. sinabihan akong i-try ko. tapos pa yang si Paul kasi nagmention about a cosplay about ragnarok characters. e ako naman kasi dati pang mahilig at madaling ma-hook basta rpg at fantasy based plotline pa.

anyways, Ana, about putting up quizzes, copy the whole script that most of those quizzes would provide after you take them, tapos pag nagpo-post ka sa blog mo i-paste mo lang yung script na yun along with whatever you're typing. tapos labas nun yun na, makikita mo na yung result ng quiz mo plus a link on how ppl can take the same quiz. yun ginagawa ko pag naglalagay ako ng quiz dito sa blog anyway, it'll prolly work with you the same way since pareho naman tayo ng gamit na blogger.

btw, wala rin akong klase ngayon kaya eto't online nanaman. bakit? kasi may seminar profs namin ^_^

nakakainis na yung modista na pinagawan ko ng uniforms... so far kasi dalawa pa lang uniforms ko, everyday kailangan malabhan ng kakasuot ko pa lang para may masuot ako the day after next. banaman, two weeksko ng binabalik-balikan yung dalawa pang pinagawa ko, pinallagyan ko lang ng lining, hanggang ngayon di pa tapos. to think two fridays ago na nila sinabing pwede ko ng kunin. bastos talaga. kairita. malugi sana business nila kasi sobrang di sila professional... grrr!

i'm thinking of watching Tomb Raider 2. May nakanood na ba sa inyo? Maganda ba? i-tag nyo naman kung ok or not, ne?

Am now officially hooked with Ragnarok. I just spent 10 straight hours just to be able to apply for a job (swordsman… este, swordswoman nga pala). My character’s name is Mirajah al’Kufra, one of the characters in a story I’m writing. Mirajah’s a swordfighter in the story, so although I kinda wanted to be either an acolyte or a mage, I followed what her job her is in my story instead. By the way, she was advised to become a thief after her Psych text in the Academy; not everyday one’s told that the best career path is the dodgy one.

Speaking of thieves, I watched the new Studio 23 show. Rather liked the dialogue… ang kulit! As in! The delicious tension between those two would be wasted if they actually do become a couple so I hope they don’t become one. Not yet anyway.

School’s going fine. Finished with the prelims. I curiously found Math easier than the Reading exam. Wonder why though. I seem to have a head for numbers all of a sudden. My NSTP groupmates are still bloody idiotic useless bitches. Long story. I wonder what’ll happen later when I get to school though, I had a bit of an argument with three of them last Saturday. A bit of it was my fault, mainly coz I’ve been pissed off with them for a long time now and I’ve been gearing for a fight; just to let out steam, and I guess to show them that since they’re not doing their work I will not continue doing it for them, saving their collective lazy butts all the time and that without me they’d be on their toes trying to save said collective butts. Whatever. I already ranted to my mom and Ana. Don’t wanna rant that much here although this blog was made so I could rant ^_^0

Survived the first wearing-white-uniform day. *big sigh of relief* Only thing is, now I’ll have to wear that get up every single weekday of the next three to four years of my life… gaaaaaahhhh…

The thing with this get up is that it forces me to act like a lady. Yup, a bloody flaming lady. I have to sit, walk, stand, and eat like a blasted prim and proper ninny. Mou…

So don’t be too surprised that when we next see each other I’d be somewhat kikay. Not too much, since I still abhor primping in front of a mirror for more than 10 minutes per day ^-^0

My classmates’ reaction to my finally wearing the uniform:
- “Mukha ka naman palang babae pag naka-uniform ka a…” (couple with sobrang nakaka-conscious na stare from this guy nicknamed Chekwa.)
- “Okay pala sayo naka-uniform e, gumanda ka.” (along with fingering my left sleeve and nakakalokong smile from Charles)
- “Tititigan muna kita for one hour ha?” (nanlolokong smile din from Jun, buti na lang dumating na prof namin at nagstart na test)
- “Uyy… naka-uniform sya. Girlish ka na rin, Ate!” (sabay tawang nang-iinis, from Lucia)

My reaction to their comments: “Oh for crying out loud, quit staring at me!!!” (sabay frown, scowl at tago sa likod ng bag.) Conscious na nga ako on my own sasabihan pa ng ganun? Pucha! Nakakainis! I guess I kinda deserved it. I /did/ kind of torment them a bit when they wore their uniforms the first time. Karma’s a bitch, ne? ^-^0

Guido:
Kuya! You actually read my blog? Mwehehehe ^_^
oks lang i guess ang pholio.com… bakit di na lang folio.com? meron na bang ganun? Anu ba ibig sabihin ng pholio? Lol
Watched T3 na! ok sya! Prequel masquerading as a sequel ang naisip ko after I watched it. Bagay kay Arnie role nya. As in. He should stick to those roles kasi yung boses nya na sobrang mala-robot e bagay sa role nya hehehhehehe ^_____^

I was typing this when I suddenly felt liquid trickle down my nose. Wiped my nose with my hand and viola! Nosebleed! Can’t remember when I last had one before this.

Must be coz I feel so tired. And it’s hot.

That’s the problem about living in Pampanga. The land is so flat with shade-less grass and rice fields and there aren’t that many trees so it’s doubly hot. And since I have to travel about an hour each day just to get to school and another hour to get back home, inside a metal-roofed oven-hot jeepney no less, well, I’m not very surprised that I got a nosebleed from the heat. And to think the aircon’s on. I’m dreading wearing white this coming Monday. Yes, I finally got my uniforms, so now I have no excuse not to wear it. Sinisita na ako ng guard about my not wearing it. Gods… white uniform (skirt pa man din!), white stockings, white shoes… gah!

Anyway, prelims aren’t over. Extended till next week yung sa amin. Got four more to take, then on with the lessons, tapos midterms naman, and so on. Parang ang bilis ng oras. Bilis matapos ng isang linggo. As in.

Malapit na birthday ng mom ko! But before that, it’s Tita Pes’ birthday tomorrow, I think. Gotta remember to greet her.

Hope Ana’s over her depression. Neechan, di ko pa tapos kulayan yung new James drawing. Try ko tapusin this weekend; pag natapos ko send ko sa email mo or upload ko na with the other stuff that needs to be uploaded for the Illusion site. Text kita pag na-send or na-upload ko na.

You too, Tin. Hindi ko pa nga na sa-scan yung flor plans e. Ei Tin, oo nga pala, asan na yung floor plans for the Panlilio, Blanco and Mendrez houses? Can you send them or make sure na dalhin mo sa dorm so in case makapunta ako ng Manila madaanan ko na lang sila sa dorm?

Ran into Atoy yesterday. He looks okay. Said he was handling his own business in the San Fernando area. Atoy’s an old classmate, actually he was an English blockmate of mine. Last time I saw him was at Ateneo so I was kinda shocked to see him, almost forgot he’s Kapampangan. But man, of all people to run into…

Anyway, was thinking of watching T3 yesterday, not that I ended up watching it. Don’t have the time. All my friends seem to be uninterested in watching it though. Well, except Guido who’s a fan ever since. He advised me to look for the first two movies and watch them before I try to see T3. Whatever.

Prelims is this week. Yun lang yun.

I have a bad feeling about how some of our classmates would see my interaction with Charles. He’s the one I told my mom reminded me of my twin cousins, Peter and Paul. Charles is the same age as the twins so I guess I’m treating him the way I used to treat the twins when I was still more or less close to those blasted cousins of mine when we were younger. Anyway, Charles is more or less the only worthwhile looking guy in our class and seems a certain number of my female classmates have a crush on him. I know he’s aware of who these females are – he opens up to me for some reason, good God, he even pointed out to me who his actual crush in school is! It’s just weird. And as I said, I have a bad feeling about how the others would react.

My arms literally hurt. I’ve again started waking up at 430 am everyday to exercise. Been lifting weights so my arms HURT!!! Feels good to sweat though, I feel better in the morning, not so sluggish now. Guess I’m rewiring my body clock. I seldom oversleep now. And got used to eating breakfast again. Youch… healthy living kuno… heheheh ^___^

Haven’t started wearing the white uniform yet, all because the darned uniforms aren’t done yet, and so they haven’t been delivered yet. So I’m still excused from wearing the all white get up, which I’m thankful for as I seldom can keep white as pristinely white as it should be. I’m dreading what’ll happen when I have my period whilst wearing the uniform. God help me, I think I’ll need an adult diaper just so I won’t go berserk about getting a stain ^_^0

Ana: Thanks! I hope I do real well on the prelims too mweheheheheh!!! I don’t see You-Know-Who anymore. Hehehe, last time I saw him though I finally got turned off. Dunno why though *shrug* weird huh? Guess he doesn’t pass my standards after all. Man, laugh all you want, I wanna cry from frustration about my Reading class. I could teach in that blasted class for crying out loud! Our professor did say something about a lack on Reading professors so I just MIGHT ask about a part time job teaching that subject next sem or next year, but I got more subjects next sem so I’m not so sure. My goal right now is just to graduate from this course, so focus on the academics muna me so I can finish this as early as possible. And talagang different yung details ng Queen of the Damned from the books. For crying out loud, they made Marius almost bald in the film when he had long luxurious silver-ish hair! They did get the red coat right though. But man, Lestat’s violin came from Nicki, a fledgling vampire who was Lestat’s childhood and close friend (I rather think they were lovers but then again Rice didn’t up and say that so let’s just keep it to close friends ehehehe…) Good luck with the HP fic, padala mo sakin pag may nasulat ka na ha? And don’t forget Illusion and Countdown while you’re at it ^___^

It happened again; I have the unfortunate habit of eating while reading something particularly descriptive and gory, and considering I have a rich imagination, you can see just try and see how appetizing food can be once you’re imagining about a creature of the dark inside a corpse-filled room lapping up the dried blood that had spilled on the floor… I really gotta stop reading while eating. But then again it does help with the supposed dieting I’m going through… so maybe I wouldn’t stop after all.

Ateneo lost to UE by 1 measly point. Tough. Oh well. They were on a somewhat losing streak during the start of the season last year but they still triumphed in the end. I still have my hopes up that they can defend that title.

Got hold of Gem’s new cell# from Joiz (THANKS AGAIN JOIZski!!!). I’ve just been to her blog, seems she’s also a Sirius Black fan. Wonder though how Ana’s doing with the HP fic she’s planning to write now that she’s finished reading book 5.

It’s prelims week this coming week. For some reason, I’m not nervous. I dunno why. Maybe coz I only have to study one handout or one chapter per subject? Lots of memorization though, although some of the terms I’m already familiar with.

I find Reading 1 somewhat laughably easy. I mean, we’re taking up prefixes and suffixes, synonyms and antonyms, idioms, and figures of speech for crying out loud! That and “what is reading” and “the benefits of reading”… bleeding flaming hell!!! WTF?! Hello? I LOVE reading so do I need to learn its benefits when I’ve been reaping them for years now? I was a literature major for crying out loud!

I’m adjusting to the new school slowly but surely. Yesterday I was sitting at a bench reading a novel while waiting for my class to start and I realized that the place I’m sitting in /is/ beautiful. Birds were chirping, the trees were huge and gave great shade, and although it was a bit hot and I was perspiring like crazy, the wind was blowing and it smelled unpolluted. I think I was being influenced by what I was reading; I was seeing the beauty of things. Of everything. Whatever, it’s not important… heheh ^^0

Okay here goes… I’m having migraines. Really huge and painful ones that start at the back of my eyes then spread until my whole head just wants to explode. My mom says I might have astigmatism; that I have to get eyeglasses. Bummer. I’ll have to wear glasses again? Darn… seriously, the prospect of wearing glasses along with that goddamned all white uniform – white shoes and white stocking added – is simply ridiculous. The very image is so NOT me. No. Not even border lining the very essence of self that I relate to, but well, it’s wear it or look for another school, which I’m not really into doing considering I’ve been there a month.

Watching CSI intimidates me. I’m only realizing now the extent of human contact I will have to go through if I go through with this path. I’m scared to hell about the prospect of helping handle somebody’s life. I can’t imagine what a doctor would feel like. Gods, I admire Bodge for wanting to be a doctor, for healing/curing/patching people up. It would take guts. Serious courage. I admire my friend for it. Myself though, although I’m terrified I also feel kind of challenged. Never mind the potential salary, never mind the fact that it’s my most probable way out of the country, I’m only starting to realize that I could actually help people with this kind of career. I’ll actually be doing something worthwhile not only to myself but also to other people as well. And right now, I think that’s what’s really keeping me going: the idea that I can actually help someone who needs help.

It just feels kinda sad that I wouldn’t be seeing much of my friends, not that I’ve been seeing much of them the past year. But at least then I had the hope at the very least that someday soon I would join them in their working lives in the big city, that at least on weekends I’d be able to get together with them and exchange gossip. I miss them terribly! I really cant relate to my classmates. They’re all so bloody young! The older ones naman are too bloody old. Nursing students’ ages at that school range from 16 (youngest) and 39 (the oldest I’ve met so far, I think there are actually students older than that). Most of my classmates are 16-18. The few 19 to 21 are somewhat aloof. I guess I’m like them. I don’t have a group. I usually go off alone during breaks. While I’m there it doesn’t really bother me except that I sometimes begin to miss my old barkada in college. Oh well… that’s that. Gotta cope. Gotta graduate.

Guess I just got curious… but man and damn, there are a whole lot of Remus/Sirius fics out there! Wonder what Ana and Emma’s reaction to their two favorite HP characters supposed relationship was if and when those two friends of mine heard or read something about it. But Crystal was kinda right about the relationship being obvious. I mean of course JK Rowling won’t up and admit that there might be something going on between Sirius and Lupin since a lot of her readers are just kids but if one considers all the little factoids about Harry’s godfather and former Defense against the Dark Arts professor… I guess I can’t help but think that something besides a deep friendship is going on behind closed doors. Which makes me curious as to whether there is a fic out there on the net about a love triangle between Lupin, Sirius, and Snape… guess I better ask Ana. But I doubt she’d read something like that since she really isn’t into the idea of Lupin/Sirius. She’d rather have Lupin for herself heheheh ^^0

Rather interesting to note that I found a semi-worthwhile Hermione x Draco story in ff.net. It was too short for my taste and I actually liked the idea of the pairing although I’m more into supporting Ron x Hermione than the wiz girl with Harry or Victor or anybody else. I don’t know, I just think she and Ron make a really good couple. They complement each other although Ron does need to get a bit of growing up to do which he seems to be on the path of in book 5. I kinda pity poor Draco and his gang having to deal with having parents who are now known Death Eaters. Must be hard resigning yourself to the fact that your father’s a cold-blooded murderer. Wonder if anyone’s gonna write a fic about how Draco feels about that. Probably someone will. It’s too nice a thing to pass up. And all Rowling really did was just make Draco angrier with Harry. Although wouldn’t it be nice if Draco and Harry would one day become friends or comrades at the least?

About another book: was finally able to catch the movie version of Anne Rice’s Queen of the Damned. Aside from the few moments when I have to admit to admiring Stuart Townsend’s marvelous-looking body and Aaliyah’s wonderful costumes as Akasha, I despised the whole film. I don’t get how Anne Rice can get so worked up about fanfiction writers posting their vampire chronicles fanfics on the net when she can tolerate and support that fiasco called a movie. A lot of things in the movie were wrong, wrong, WRONG! Wrong from how Lestat’s supposed to look like – I mean one of his distinguishing features is that he’s supposed to be extremely proud of his beautiful BLONDE hair – to his siring by Marius (when in the book it was an old vamp named Magnus who promptly exterminated himself after siring Lestat and leaving to the fledgling vampire a king’s hoard of treasures) to his relationship with David Talbot and Jessie (from what I remember, Maharet was the one who made Jessie into a vampire but I might be wrong in this one and Lestat made David a vampire later on, and David supposed to be getting on with his years when in the film he looked no older than fifty, give or take a few years) , even up to Akasha’s death (the whole business of Maharet and her twin eating up Akasha’s heart and brain so the vampire race wouldn’t be extinguished with their Queen was changed to Maharet drinking Akasha’s last drop of blood). They BARELY followed the book’s plot.

Guess I have to say that I’m terribly sorry for the spoilers I just gave out. Well, it’s my blog anyway so I can write whatever I bloody want and it’s not my fault that you wanna bleeding read my worthless thoughts!

I don't think they've realized it yet, well, rather understandable since I didn't tell them and I don't really know what the professor would do with the paper I've given him along with the submission of our project yesterday... but well, all I really did was submit a progress report of a kind that says what exactly it was that everyone did and who did what. Not my fault that some of them didn't do much in helping with the project but well, I'll hear about it in thecoming week.

If you're confused about whatever it is that I've just written, call me or text me so I can tell you about the whole fiasco. I'm really too tired to rant.

Finished reading HP book 5 though. Must say that I'm happy that Umbridge got what she deserved. Wonder what the effects of the brain-incident would have on Ron though... would be funny if he got smarter than Hermione though, heheh... And yeah, poor Emski's fave character did die... poor sod, he literally almost didn't have a clue about what hit him ^^0 Oh well... Ana's gonna bring him back, too bad it isn't canon.

Realized from what my groupmates told me that I have a bit of a rival at school. Not that I really care. It's funny that I didn't notice it. Well, it's this: my groupmates said that we have this classmate who seems to want to go one on one with me when it comes to doing well in school. They said that every time I recite she always always has to disagree or add or prove that what I said is somewhat lacking if not absolutely wrong... I'm like, "huh?" Yeah, clueless as ever since I really couldn't care less if she feels like she wants to be my rival or something... they said she wants to prove she's the best in our class. I really couldn't care less whether she is or isn't. All I do care about is that I pass the 83% mark so I could stay for the next semester.

To answer Jenny's questions: I'm taking up Nursing in the University of the Assumption here in Pampanga. Kumusta ka na nga pala miss? How's your love life? ^_^

Speaking of love life... about you-know-who, hay nako, wala na yun. Turn off na ko. As in. I'll tell you about it when we talk next.

Got sick so didn't go to class today. Darnit.
Reading HP book 5. Now I understand somewhat why Ana dislikes Cho so much... only somewhat coz I really can't see what's so distressing about Harry liking a girl... it's supposed to be a normal thing that could happen to any normal young male, right? Hmmm, I really don't know. Seems they both like each other as far as I've gone into book 5 anyway. I barely remember anything from books 3 & 4 so I guess I can't really say if I dislike Cho at all. I don't mind her being there in the plot coz it livens up things for poor Harry who Crystal said - and she's quite right - needed serious anger management in this book.