I HATE PARKING!!!

I am no good at it, I’m telling you. Not that I can’t get it parked, it’s more of a question of how the car’s bleeding parked. I wanted it parked straight and it’s sideways. When I fricking tried to park it sideways, guess what? It went straight! Bloody bleeding car! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

Well, I’m not about to give up on that. Still got three remaining classes so I’ve got at least that much time to practice.


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Quote I just heard in a movie:

“I love wild cats. They’re always pregnant because they think of nothing but love.” - from Surviving Picasso where Anthony Hopkins plays Picasso. I LOVE Anthony Hopkin's voice!!! It's soooooo soothing ^_____^

Watching Six Feet Under made me wonder if funeral homes ever go under... no pun intended ^^;

Got someof the icons uploaded in the file section of KR, if anyone's interested.

Tin: Your Meteor Garden icons are there right now.

Ana:The Harry Potter icons will come as soon as I get some good pics of the cast, although I do have icons of the anime-version Emski sent me once.

Emski: Made some... este, several Hiko Seijuro icons for you. Thought you might like to have 'em ^^;

and here are more quizzes:



You are an angel.

What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox

Oh really now? How come I don't think so?



...seriously? took this twice and both results are same. oh well...



Congratulations, you're New York City, the Big Apple.
What US city are you? Take the quiz by Girlwithagun.

Well I do like New York... ^_^




Congratulations, you're a Dryad, a playful tree spirit.
What kind of female faerie are you?
Take the female faerie quizby Paradox

Still working on the icons and trying to organize them so i can finally upload the darned things. so far i got 870... Haven't finished the Hko fic yet, still on chapter 3; I'm trying not to make it into one but it's turning out into one of those long ones again... *sighs* oh well, need a few info first before I can continue with the story. hope Maigo-chan's RK Manga translations are still up...

Anyways, here are more quizzes...


you're the bassist!


what band member are you?
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(and here I don't even know how to play any musical intrument... used to with the piano, but forgot the lessons i had way back in elementary so it doesn't count)



The Shy Beauty-
Description: quiet, a bit anti-social, and quite a
dreamer
Guys you fall for: Smart and adorable guys
Corresponding Color: Black
Corresponding Number: 2


What kind of Beauty are you?
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(eep! I'm like Kaoru?! WTF?! I took this five times and I got the same bloody result! Oh well, I guess Kaoru's nice...)



Your Sanzo-Tachi alter ego is Cho Hakkai. You
possess his character.


Who Among Saiyuki's Sanzo-Tachi is Your Alter Ego?
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(hmmm... that's odd... I don't really think so...)



Genjo Sanzo--Work can get in the way sometimes, but
be patient and he will never leave you,
although he may be overly-short tempered.


Who is your Saiyuki boyfriend?
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(mwehehehe! i LIKE ^_^... to think I used to like Gojyo more, I dunno what happened, just realized Sanzo's character was more to my taste, of the four main characters in GS anyway. I still LIKE Homura ^_^ )

Am currently pressing a cold compress on my face, just came back from the dentist, had my other impacted wisdom tooth taken out. I got one thing to say about the whole deal: IT HURTS!!!

The anesthesia didn’t help, even though she injected twice the normal dosage, it still hurt like hell when she literally forced my tooth off its place.

Well, can’t do anything about it anymore, can I? So I’ll stop griping about that now.

What the hell was wrong with my driving today?! For the first time during all my so-far successful driving lessons, I almost hit a fricking wall AND I bleeding stalled in the middle of the bloody flaming road!!! Talk about a Faye-experience. Good thing my instructor’s really good and alert. Emphasis on the alert part. And fast in reacting.

Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!

Oh bloody flaming hell!!!

*continues ranting for ten solid minutes*

okay. That’s over and done with. I just hope I don’t bleeding do that again next time. Screw next time, let’s make that NEVER. NEVER! NEVER!!! It’ll never happen, ever. Nor will anything worse ever happen. Nope. At least I hope not.

For some reason I felt somewhat nervous today, totally unlike the usual mindset I was in during my other previous classes.

I’ll stop thinking about that now.

What else is new with me? Absolutely nothing.

Seven hours.

Seven boring hours.

Seven long excruciatingly painful hours of getting my hair relaxed.

Well, the end result looks like a combination of the straightness of Mei Zhuo’s hair plus the length and style of Simon’s hair (both guys from F4). Ack!!! And considering I was wearing really baggy clothes – large t-shirt, baggy jeans and sneakers - when I had my hair cut today, I wasn’t that surprised when people started looking at me oddly when I got out of the salon. They must think I’m a MG fanatic having my hair done like this… the heck, I’m not! Not that I don’t like MG, it’s just that all the hype is turning me off.

Gawds, can you believe it?! What the hell is up with my hair?! I don’t like it looking like this! I’ve been told it looks nice but jeez, that was the hairdresser and my mom telling me so; they’re SUPPOSED to tell me it looks nice, god dammit!!!

Girls, why the hell do we do this to ourselves?! How come guys don’t get that criticized if their hairdo’s a fricking mess?! It’s just hair!

Ok, fine. Hair’s supposed to be the crowning fricking glory or something like that. But it doesn’t end there!

I haven’t even started about the whole clothes, make up, shoes, accessories, and everything else that pertains to how we NEED to a certain look just to project a kind of appearance that would make society think we’re respectable people. What the hell?

I know first impressions are important and all, and God knows I’ve been guilty several times of forgetting a person’s name if he or she doesn’t make a strong first impression on me, but heck whatever happened to actually getting past the looks and getting to know the bleeding person behind the wacky hairdo, the not-so-crisply ironed clothes, the mud-spluttered shoes, etc. These people have their own stories to tell and we’re all missing out on learning about what they know, what knowledge they can impart just because we don’t deem them as worthy of our time because of the way they look. How do we know that unlike some kikay person who has hours to primp in front of a mirror that these not-so-presentable people need to spend those hours working just so they could continue to live?

Okay, where the hell did I go with this rant? I’ll stop now.

Back to me though… I MISS MY LONG HAIR!!! I never thought I’d say that. But I DO miss it. Ahh… to be able to tie my hair in a ponytail or put it in a long thick braid to trail behind me…

I wanna go back to Fix and KILL that blasted stupid no-excuse-for-a-hair-dresser homosexual who cut my hair wrong back in February. He or she or IT started this. IT gave me this problem. My bleeding hair hasn’t grown longer than an inch since then… argh!

Do I sound as vain to you now as I do with myself?

Whatever. I still wanna kill that homo. Not that I have anything against gay people. They’re people. But that @(%#! person…!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, as I said: whatever. Can't really doanything about this except wait it out till it grows longer...

so meanwhile, took another quiz. don't you just love quizilla?


My Inner Age
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What have I been up to lately?

Apart from submitting countless of paperwork for my enrollment, I’ve been watching X1999 series, Meteor Garden, My MVP Valentine, GTO, both the anime and live action… all of which, except for MG, are in either Japanese or Chinese and are featuring Japanese-made animation or Chinese actors.

Remember that Chinese tv series I was telling you guys about? The one with the opening song that I can’t get out of my head and the main male character looks like Rus? Well, it’s back, only this time they’re showing part two! Waii!!!!!!!! ^__________^

Hey! Let (from Rave) looks like Aoi from Imadoki!!! Double waiii!!!!!

Argh! He became a stupid tree! Just when he fricking transformed back as a human! Stupid idiot! BAKA!!!

Is it obvious yet that I’m watching Rave while I’m writing this down?

Haru reminds me of Cloud of FF7, a younger and less serious Cloud. Coz of the big sword he carries I guess.

All in all, Rave makes me think of the Final Fantasy series. I’d also love to play it were Rave made into an RPG. It’s nice. Not very original and kinda has predictable plot, but it’s still nice.

Btw, Emski, I started a Hiko fanfic. Uploaded it at fanfiction.net just search for my nickname there: feifu. As far as I know ako pa lang feifu dun e. hehehhe ^_^

Hmmm, whoever this guy Elie is supposed to fight must be gay… he’s so effeminate! But he’s kinda cute, but I don’t really like effeminate guys. Hate the fact that they’re more feminine than me. Hey! He uses an ice sword! Cool! Heheh, that’s funny… the poor guy’s forced to fight these really inept creatures Elie’s with. Poor sod… I gather he feels rather insulted.

Hey Rain, how’d it happen that Musica’s hair changed? I distinctly remember his hair being long and orange or reddish at the start, so what happened? Why’d it turn black and spiky? I wasn’t able to watch that part kasi e.

Oh well, the Rave episode’s over. RK’s next, I think…

Yep, it’s next alright. Opening song playing right now. ½. Sanozuke’s sooooo cute!!!!! So’s Shishio!!!! Triple waiiiiiii!!!!!

What?! Shishio IS cute, you just have to look past all those bandages. And burns. And dementia. And the fact that he’s a cold-blooded murderer. He IS cute, trust me on that. Well, at most, my last defense in saying that is that there is a saying that beauty is in the eye of the beholder…

Heheh, Emski’ll love this! It’s a Hiko episode!!! The training part where they show how Hiksters rescued young Shinta. I suppose I’m not providing anyone with spoilers about RK, am I? I think most of you who actually visit this blog do already know the whole RK story. Maybe even better tan I do at that.

It’s funny how these two interact. Talk about throwing insults… I especially like the part when Kenshin was so relieved that he didn’t kill his Shishou that he actually jumped to hug Hiko and Hiko evaded him saving he has a thing against men hugging him. Mwheheheheheheh!!!!! That scene was really cute!

I still have to look for the name Hiko uses as an alias… you know, the other name he uses as a potter in Kyoto. Do any of you know that name? Just put it in the tagboard if you do, ne?

got bored so took these...


you are "occult". just don't give a fuck.


What type of manga are you?
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You are Beast!

You are brilliant and extremely clever. You can
handle almost any problem swiftly and
efficiently. You are devoted to philosophy and
are always up for a good discussion.
Sometimes, though, your anger gets the best of
you and you upset those whom you care about.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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You should be a Leo, Outgoing, warm, friendly,
generous, loyal, likable, entertaining, likes
attention, confident, cherrful, creative,
strong-willed, charismatic, proud, extrovert,
but can be demanding, dogmatic, controlling,
afraid of rejection


~*What is your TRUE Zodica sign?*~
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You are a weird dream


What kind of dream are you?
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I just had a good long cry. Well, I couldn’t really call it crying, more like sobbing. I was just sobbing my heart out after – and during, actually – talking with my dad and mom about my decision to go on and enroll at Assumption and take up Nursing. My eyes are aching right now and my nose is full of you-know-what.

It feels good actually. I feel like a load has been lifted somewhat. I know what my decision will entail, I know what I’m getting into and what I’m about to give up but I feel as though that this is the path I want to take. It’s for my life. My future. I used to have no plans for the future, but now… well, at least I have a plan I am willing to commit to.

So guys, I wouldn’t be living anywhere in Metro Manila in the next three to four years. I doubt if I ever would do so. I’m having my aunt tell Dep.Gov. Tetangco that they should give the job to someone else if ever they’re actually thinking of hiring me in the first place. I don’t know since I haven’t heard from them, BSP I mean.

I’m not saying goodbye or anything, but I know I wouldn’t be able to see you guys as often as I would want to and I know I’ll miss you all. Gawds!!! I’ve been in a sentimental mood lately, haven’t I? It certainly doesn’t sound like me, being sentimental. But hell, at least I’ve got an excuse as I’ve just had an emotional outburst of the tear-filled kind and now I’m writing this bloody stupid post!

Why am I anyway? Coz it’s a cheaper way to express myself and tell you all the news that I’m yet again indebted to my parents and that I feel that I’m going through what people usually call the on-going process of “maturity” and “growing up”.

Well, that’s that. Tell you more next time.

btw, got thisfrom Gem's blog:

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I kinda just realized something again… well, it’s like this, I was drawing some of my friends and family in my usual anime style of drawing and I realized, after several such sketches and at least an hour of staring at their each of their pictures while I drew, that I see them – my family and close friends – as the most wonderful and beautiful people in the world ^____^

Don’t let that get to your head now *grins* But you know, you guys better savor my saying that because it’s not everyday that I’d admit to something like that heheheh… ^^;

I haven’t drawn half of the people I want to draw mainly because I don’t have pictures I can use as basis for drawing these people. I’ve been hounding them (ex. Clairol and Jucyn) about sending me a pic but they haven’t yet done so. Oh well…

These drawings are also a form of procrastination, if you must know. I’m making them to have an excuse not to draw yet some of the characters for Illusion. *laughs evilly* Well, it’s all Russell’s fault for starting it with not wanting to get sketched in the first place! Enough excuses. When I run out of my friends and family’s pictures to tinker with I promised myself that I’d do the Illusion characters next. Plus the fact that I do NEED to make them darned illu sketches for the family info page in the site I’m making for the story.

Darn.

I just realized that not only am I now in charge of all the character pics for illu, I’ve also promised Ana and Tin I’d write chapter 6 AND I’m also making the bleeding website!!! What the-?! Why did I sign up for doing all of that? Maybe because I was bored and I wasn’t doing anything anyway? Eeep!! Tin, Ana, gomen, I can’t do all of these things at once so if I take too long doing them you’ll just have to be patient about it, k?

Oh bleeding hell... so much for keeping a lid on the excuses...

Oi oi! I updated Killer's Rant and added some new pics.

Ems, Guids, Ana, & Ai: Please, please please follow this link, and scroll down till you find the "My Friends" part of the page. I have a small surprise in store for you guys there heheheh ^_^

Anyway what else is new? Nothing much. I'm over my most recent bout of sniffles thanks to my mom's home remedy of warm calamansi juice and herbal tea ^^; BSP still hasn't called so I'll most probably really go to school again... Went with my mom and Tita Betty at Makati med again yesterday; Tita got a second opinion about her leg's vein and turns out this doctor told her she didn't need to be confined anymore: she just needs to diet, to lose two pounds a week actually, and drink her medicine. Oh well, at least she's happy about the result.

I’m not too good a companion right now. I’m feeling sick and I’m cranky. I just managed to drive my own mother out of my room with a glare.

Besides feeling generally crappy – coz I’m coughing, I got a stuffy nose, and a slight fever, no I don’t have SARS, but I’d really not rather go out and have that blasted medical checkup I’ll eventually have to go to later today or tomorrow morning since I goddamned need a urine, stool, blood and general medical examination to submit to Assumption so they’d fricking let me enroll.

Yes. I passed their blasted nursing exam. With high colors no doubt. They even told me that I don’t have to take that other exam to become Nurse 3, whatever that is. Well, my mom explained that if a person taking up Nursing didn’t pass the exam to become Nurse 3 they’ll have no choice but become midwives. I don’t have to take that test. Apparently, my scores at the entrance exam and aptitude test were high enough to exempt me from that in the future. If I do go and enroll there. Whatever.

BSP still hasn’t called. I’m giving it till the end of this week to do so since I only have until before the 15th to get permission to enroll in Assumption. Why all these stupid deadlines? Well because I really want to get on with my life and stop being on wait mode.

Hmmm… I just realized something. I like characters like Roo (Raymond E. Feist’s Serpentwar Saga) and Silk (David Edding’s Belgariad) but when I met someone who could have embodied those two characters, I ended up not liking him much. I won’t tell you who it is; I’ll just say that he was a classmate during college. He’s a person I admire because of his having a goal-oriented personality and the drive to get to that goal no matter what, but beyond that I couldn’t really make myself talk to him for more than a few sentences. *shrugs* Beats me why I feel like that. I rather think though that our personalities just don’t jive. So maybe if I met Roo or Silk in real life I wouldn’t understand them either, maybe not even like them as much as I do when I read about them. Oh well…

Anyway, the feast of St. Joseph’s over for this year; so is my stint as a flower arranger. I didn’t even know the names of the flowers I used. I just now they’re yellow… well, with splotches of brown now hehehe ^^; The food turned out okay. Lots of people who came to mass ate breakfast with us. Lots of “take home” & “pa-plastic” meals; all because they were too shy to eat there, but weren’t shy enough to ask for half a dozen sandwiches and a plateful of spaghetti to take home with them. But that happens every year so nothing new there.

Another celebration I went to was my cousin’s wedding. I have one thing to say about her wedding: it gave me all the pointers on what NOT to do during weddings. Seriously. If my wedding (if I’ll ever get married which won’t be anytime soon) were like that, I’ll probably get an annulment, el pronto. But then my cousin didn’t have that choice since she’s seven months pregnant…

The last celebration I went to was Lola Oding’s birthday. The crowd was definitely better, less… um, rowdy and much more polished and mature than those who went to my cousin’s wedding. No one said it outright but I think everyone was thinking that this celebration might most probably be the last birthday Lola Oding would ever celebrate. She’s semi conscious at times. She at least can respond a bit when people talk to her, moaning and crying most of the time, but her doctors said that if liquid once again pools up in her skull she’d suffer another stroke or something and then that’s gonna be it. Game over. It was supposed to be a celebration but one could notice that the people who came were visibly subdued; they laugh, true, but never too loud and never too happily. It was really more of a reunion of sorts… all of Lola Oding’s family and friends came to see her… I guess while we still all have the chance to be with her… *sighs* Oh well, that’s life.