Met an assassin yesterday. Think he was AGI based coz man, that guy could move! He was so fast! Di man lang makahirit sa kanya yung mga orc skeletons even though they ganged up on him na. Of course he took a bit of a time sitting around doing nothing so he could regenerate, but dang he was fast! Something about assassins wearing those sakkats really turns me on: must be the air of mysteriousness they seem to exude. Hahaha! Nevermind.

Was invited to join two guilds yesterday. After spending a few minutes as a guild member, I left. If ever I would really join and stay in any guild I want to personally know the people in it. The guy who invited me sa guild nila asked why I left... sabi ko I like to work alone. Truth is, if I do work in a guild, then I want to be working with people I can relate to and trust. It's hard to kill monsters, it takes time. And if I don't trust the people I'm in the guild with... and if their guild master don't even want to explain a few simple stuff about the technicalities of being in a guild, well... I might as well not stay. So I left.

Main reason why I think I’d have a hard time leveling up if I’m an:
Acolyte: ayoko magtanong kung pwede akong magpa-tank.
Archer: ayokong mamalimos just so I could buy arrows at the start.

Pero sa Loki, I’m developing a character who’d become an aco. Guess I just want to try it out. Although I’m having a swell time being a swordess. Tapos naman yung isa kong character sa Chaos archer sya… So far I’ve been advised to become a) archer, b) thief, c) merchant. Of the three, piliin ko muna siguro thief – since meron na akong archer – coz of that guy I met. Heheh, ang astig e!

***

Holding on tightly to the glimpses of the past,
I wake up drenched in cold sweat while the wind blows cold.
I must step forward and start looking for the sun.

Okay, here goes… be ready for a rant:

The first part of my Math midterms was going well when my so very inconsiderate classmate – won’t mention names – borrowed my correction fluid. Now, me being the goody-goodie that I am allowed said classmate to borrow said item. I didn’t really have a choice since the person just up and took it, and since nakaupo sya sa likod ko di ako makatingin patalikod lalo na’t asa tapat ko prof namin. I don’t want the prof to say I’m cheating now do I? Thing is, I made some errors with these two items and had unfortunately used ink for answering so I needed the correction fluid badly coz I had no more space to place my solutions. Trouble was, my oh-so very considerate – not! – classmate hasn’t yet returned my correction fluid. The stupid idiot returned it AFTER we submitted our papers. I waited for the person to return it until the end of the period, and matagal na akong tapos with the test way before the end of the period, so I waited in vain. My gripe is that I bought that correction fluid yesterday and brought it to school today so I could use it in case something like that happened. But no… ang nangyari e iba pa yung nakinabang, at pinahiram pa daw pala nya sa katabi nya. BLOODY FUCKING HELL. Nakakainis na. And my super bait na classmate just smiled at me ten minutes after the test while returning said item. “Thank you!” sabi nya tapos nakiusap na sa ibang tao. Ang bait talaga! As in. Napaka-considerate na tao talaga. As in! P.I. nya! Tapos later during the next class, nanghihingi ng yellow pad sakin kasi may quiz. Ayokong bigyan, sabi ko wala kahit harapan nakita nya na meron. Sya pa yung nagtampo at sabi sakin e ang damot ko naman daw. I seriously wanted to punch and kick someone kanina, particularly sya, pero since I’m the older of us two, I just smiled and took it in stride.

Never again.

I am fed up.

Now this may seem such a petty thing… bakit ako naiirita e pagkaliit-liit lang na bagay, di ba? Think about it like this… if the same happens to you at an almost weekly, if not daily basis, won’t you get fed up as well?

I’m chalking all this up to Mars being so close. Plus my period just ended, and I’m usually snappish a few days before, during, and a few days after my monthly visit.

But still…

Would it be so bad if I hire someone to have these kinds of people shot in the head, right between the eyes?

No scrap that. Not painful and stressful enough… any suggestions? *evil grin*

Anyways, on a lighter note…

I bought MMV OST cds kanina. So far di pa me nagsisisi coz I like almost ALL the songs. Sabi nga ni Ana-nechan, pinagsama Jpop, Korean, and Chinese artists… saya! And the two cds only cost 300php! Sabi nung saleslady ikalawa pa lang akong bumibili ng MMV cds, puros daw sa F4 binibili; ako naman di ko man lang pinansin yung sa F4 ^^0 Yung habol ko kasi e yung mga kanta ng Do As Infinity tsaka yung “The Shining” ng K DUB SHINE. Hahhahhah…

Level 49/36 na me sa pRO! Met another really nice player. Actually, met two really nice pRO players kamakailan lang. So far lahat ng nakakaaway ko mages at archers… tapos puros ka-vibes ko mga swordie at knights. I don’t ask it of them pero sinasama nila me sa party at pinapayagan magpa-tank at binibigyan pa ng gamit at pera… ngak… Ewan lang, siguro naaawa sila sakin or something. Kahapon 3 guys na knights yung kasama ko sa party sa may Orc Dungeon. I can say I was very well protected. As in. Sinama nila ako sa party nila kahit na level 59-65 silang tatlo… dahil tuloy sakin di sila maka-even share. I did offer to leave the party, pero ayaw naman nila. Hehehhe… muse daw ako. HAHAHAHHA!!! Tapos ayun, ang daming binibigay na tips kung ano dapat pataasin kong skill at stat, at kung saan ok magpalevel up. Kahit pano miss ko na yung isang naging friend ko na swordie dun way back nung ala pang bayad. Knight na siguro sya ngayon. Kasi naman nabura friends list ko kaya di ko na sya ma-contact… e di ko kabisado name nya sa pRO.

Btw Ems, gusto mong magpalevel up? Punta ka Orc Ville. Bilis ng exp kasi hindi nauubos kalaban. And the items are ok, pero sensya na lang sa mga looters minsan, pero siguro sanay ka na sa ganun. Kaya mo na naman panigurado dun. Lalo na kung kasama mo si Ai ^_^


***
Here’s another Wild Adapter quote:

This is “Death”
Invitation to freedom.
Nothingness, eternally revealed.
Absolute denial.
Conception of sin.
A scornful laugh and profanity for life.
Or defeat.
Vanishing body temperature.
Flowing redness.
Losing the luxury of pain……
The orgasm seen in that moment.

***
I can appreciate poems but I realized way back that I am no bloody poet. I’m not expressive enough, I guess.

Can’t wait to see Mars. I wish I had a telescope though. Darn. Oh well…

Can you believe that I’m looking forward about having my math midterms later? Math? Hello? I usually hate math.

Heard from news yesterday that those born during the last days of January, November, and two other months which I forgot, would be greatly affected with Mars being so close to the earth. Cool. Wonder how it’s supposed to affect me? The lady said something about war and fire… that Mars is the one that brings passion into people… or something like that. Maybe I’m just conjecturing coz I don’t remember everything she said mainly because I was studying for my math midterms. I can’t believe I actually reviewed my math notes and understood them!

About the passion bit… well, if I need a bleeding planet to get near ours just so I’d be passionate about something – or someone – then a part of me must be irrevocably wrong. Or did the lady mean that I’d be more passionate about things? Hmmmm… wouldn’t that lead to trouble now… hahahhaah!!! But I’m kinda curious. Wonder what these coming days will have in store? Can’t wait!

***
Tomorrow will come, without prayers.
The end will come, without hurrying.
I live only to be worthy of the corpse
I shall leave behind on that day.
(Got this from a Wild Adapter piccie... well, I obviously liked it that's why it's here...)

I can barely go online to play. Long bloody story, and I’ll only rant if I tell it here. So I won’t.

Am thinking about taking advantage of that 40php/vcd of the yd and buy the cds I want to now, but I’m not so sure if that’s a good idea or not. Like I said, I don’t have any extra money these days. Plus I’m kinda saving up to buy those ankle and wrist weights… which cost around 300php each but then since I bought the internet card and the level up prepaid I couldn’t buy them anymore and have to save up again… which makes me think that I do need a part time job. Wonder what though? And would my mom allow me to have one? I mean if it would mean I’d be out of the house until after the fricking sun sets? Yes, she literally panics when I’m not yet home by that time. My bad. I know. I know. You don’t have to remind me about what I did last June.

Anyway, haven’t been playing pRO for almost a whole week now. I think I’m having some sort of withdrawal symptoms. Hehhehe…

Was watching Ima Soko Ni Iru Boku again the other day; just remembered something Shuu said: “As long as I’m alive, something good will happen to me.” Rather optimistic isn’t it? But then it’s really all we can all hope for.

Took the quiz at Gem’s journal, the one about what zodiac sign should I be dating, and got Sagittarius for the result. My first thought was… Stupid test, I am a Sagittarian! Does it mean I should date myself? Or in other words, a guy who is so like me he might as well be a male clone of me? But thinking about it now, maybe the test was right. Mainly because I have to admit that the person who I love most right now, other than my parents, is myself. I have to love myself coz if I don’t, who would?

Sad that some people are missing MMV’s better story/plot because of misplaced loyalty to MG’s F4. Ala lang… just watched the latest episode of MMV at GMA. Poor Chen Feng. He had it coming though, for being so goddamned callous. I dunno… the MMV characters are more believable and alive for me I guess. My mom’s complaining about my not wanting to switch channels and watch MG2 coz she wants to know its story too. I can’t help but feel that I don’t care whether I watch MG2 or not, whiles I want to have my own copy of MMV.

Speaking of which… Tin! Do you know anyone who’s selling subtitled episodes of MMV? Anyone you can get a discount from? Heheh… la me masyadong moolah these days e, what with the lesser allowance (na sobrang nahihiya ko ng tanggapin FYI), daily commuting, and buying level-up prepaid cards mweheheheh…

Emski!!! Sobrang sorry! We were supposed to meet sa Mjolnir_07 right? Kaso yung puchang VIBE ni-disconnect ako! Di ako maka-connect ulit! Laging “unable to establish a connection” ang drama ng modem kong nakakewan. Kainis! And here I was supposed to meet you pa man din. At malapit na yung may bayad pa naman! PUCHA!!!!!!!!!

Ana-neechan! Tried to find a back view of acolyte kaso di pa me makahanap. Heheheh… talaga bang pupunta ka sa cosplay? I wanna go too!!! Kaso ala me moolah for costume making… PAUTANG!!!!! J/k ^^0 And no time din actually, to go to Manila me. Medyo Pampanga-bound ako for four years lang naman *big sweatdrop* But at least I’m working towards something which would potentially lead me to a better future. And I’m not as bored as I used to be when ala akong ginagawa at andito lang ako sa house. Naghi-hint na ba enough yun? Kaya para po mawala depression nyo, try to find something to keep you busy. Something you’ll commit to doing in a long-term period and preferably something you’ll love to do. Like moving to London to stalk Daniel Radcliffe… este, enroll in grad studies pala ^__^

Switched from Norton to McAffee and so far I’m happy coz Genrou’s not acting up. Gave up the virtual cd software Guids installed, meaning I also had to uninstall Diablo II, Warcraft III and Starcraft. Not much of a loss considering I was able to retain my saved files from said games, I’ll just have to buy my own installers. Anyways, methinks Genrou’s heaving a big sigh of relief. Coz with all the uninstalled files I freed up about 3 gig of hard disk space. Now to finally buy that cd writer and burn those hundreds of picture files…

Academics check: I’m passing. More than passing; which, I think is great ^_^ Thing with me is that I have this pattern of behavior… at the start I do REALLY great, then I get bored, then I lose interest, then I barely scrape through with the requirements coz I don’t care what happens anymore. Hope that doesn’t happen this time. I don’t think it would. I wouldn’t let it happen.

I don’t like watching MG2… it’s just too cheesy… okay, so they’re out on a date. Spain’s tourism must have had a boost after MG2… but man, did they have to drag it out that long? Sorry, Tin, alam ko you like Jerry/Ah Si/David pero I’m getting tired of seeing his face. Same thing with the other F4 members. Overexposure? Too much on a daily basis makes me just… puke. Yes. Even if I do like Ken. Kakasawa lang. And I don’t see their characters’ in MG changing. Not that much, not really.

Buti pa talaga plot ng MMV. Delineated talaga wants ng lahat ng characters… lahat sila may action na ginagawa to reach their wants, and they don’t just wait and let things happen to them before they actually /do/ something. Argh… I gues taking that play writing class really did spoil my enjoyment of several movies and tv series. Although I /want/ to and will watch “Pirates of the Caribbean” and “League of the Extraordinary Gentlemen”. Ana, Ems, Tin, Ai, Jean, gusto nyong reunion tayo to watch either film? Heheh… if all our schedules would allow us to meet that is…

Speaking of MMV, were you guys able to watch the episode today? There was this preciously hilarious scene between this girl named Barbie and that other basketball player whose name I can never get, you know, the maton/astig guy who reminds me somewhat of Mitsui at the start… mala gangster or basagulero pero yun pala nagsa- sour grape lang kasi he couldn’t play coz of a busted knee… that guy. His interaction with Barbie, and Barbie’s pet dog, was FUNNY!!! ^_^ I loved it! Palagay ko sila magkakatuluyan… hahahhaha!!!

No class tomorrow and on Friday!!! YEHEY!!! I CAN PLAY pRO ALL I BLOODY WANT!!! *turns chibi and dances around in circles* ^________________________^

Bigkis was reminiscent of those high school festivals we used to have in St. Scho. What I didn’t like was that they forbid us from exiting the gym AND during lunch time told the guards at all the gates to disallow us from leaving the school premises. The poor security guard got the brunt of nasty jokes, curses, and what-not from us first year students required to attend the event. I should’ve brought another t-shirt, coz the only ones they wouldn’t let out were those wearing what I was wearing, a white shirt that has Bigkis written all over the front and back. The guard kept saying that we are the school’s responsibility while we were inside the premises, that we were not supposed to go out and that we were supposed to follow this coz we were all minors… well hell, since when did being 22 years old become a state of being a minor? I literally barged my way out of the gate and fortunately did not have to give up my ID as I did so. Yes, they’re THAT strict in my current school. Bull fucking shit.

Didn’t go to the Acquaintance Party for Nursing students. Didn’t feel like it. Sides, it was my mother’s birthday that day. I don’t see why I have to hobnob with people I barely see.

I’m ranting… again. So what the hell is bloody new?

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TIn: park here all u want ^_^ tag all u wish, ur very welcome here imouto-chan ^_^

Ems: gomen ne, di ako nagising ng maaga enough to meet you sa RO. As in tulog na tulog ako at 6am pa lang ako nagising.

Ana: i don't have time to update the illu site coz between school and playing RO, heheh, I just don't even when I'm online a lot. Bigay ko na lang sayo yung password for editing the site through email para ikaw na muna in charge, ok lang? Btw, Neechan, it IS possible to re-wire your body clock. I did.

Got this from Emma's email, but I already took this test before through Gem's blog I think. Anyways, I took it again and I got more or less the same results as before:

b>The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Hmmm... so I'm supposed to go to the Third level of Hell huh? Too bad I won't get to see Judas. He's supposed to be at the lowest level right? And where's Satan supposed to be staying btw? If I'm in hell I might as well pay my respects and visit the His Evilness himself... Kidding!!! ^_~


Btw, JENNY!!! Di mo sinasabing may blog ka pala! Thanks for visiting mine ^^ I already put up a link to yours nga pala, hope you don't mind.

Hello Melai!!! Musta New York girl? Wow... dalawa na sa mga friends ko andyan ngayon. Wonder kung nagmeet na kayo ni Gemski...

Emma! Di ako makaconnect sa RO!!! Down ba server nila today? Pucha naman, kung kailan walang assignment at walang magawa the whole afternoon dun ako di makalaro!!! Level 39/29 na me. Hayyy... I'm depopulating the Horn and Coco population of map Mjolnir_07 ^_^ Pero worth it naman kasi nakailang level up na me dun tsaka nakakacollect nako ng zeny paunti-unti. San ba nakakabili nung helm?

Jean! Ano name ng character mo sa pRO?

Clairol!!! BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Tanggap mo ba text ko? I texted u kaso biglang ubos batt ko so di me sure kung nasend... soweee po... ilang taon na po kayo now?

Ana!!! (nao-obvious bang medyo genki ako ngayong sinusulat ko to?) Di pumayag mom ko... gomen !_! Kasi daw two Sundays na kaming nakaplanong aalis laging di natutuloy coz of the weather and other reasons I don't wanna put up dito sa blog so ayun, medyo nagtampo when I asked kung pwede akong pumunta ng RO2 meeting sa Sunday... try ko ulit bukas baka makulit pero I doubt talaga... lalo na't bday nya day before Sunday so ayun...

Tin!!! Dali! I-stalk mo na talaga yung David look-a-like dyan sa school!!! Tanong mo kung may kilala syang mala-Rus at James and ugali hehehe.. I'm really curious as to how this "David" looks like. Picturan mo mweheheh ^____^

Guids!!! Musta na yung site mo? natuloy mo bang ginamit yung phlio.com???

My mom’s birthday is this coming Saturday. I still don’t have a gift for her; firstly because I have no money to buy one. I know she won’t mind if I didn’t give her one but I’d really like to give my mom a gift. Anyways, no Sat class this coming August 9 as well, but I still have to go to school for the Nursing students’ Acquaintance Party. It’s from 2pm till 9pm. All that time… I wonder what the hell we’re supposed to do with all that time? I think there’s some kind of program coz some of my classmates were asked to join some kind of dance group which was formed all coz of the party, which I’m planning to not attend only thing is it’s compulsory attendance. Damn. Well, I still plan on leaving early. And bring a book. Or a sketch pad. I’d bring Genrou if he were a laptop so that I could write for either Illusion or A.I. Too bad he isn’t. Oh well…

My character in Ragnarok is now level 38/29 Swordman. All that in one week of playing. Met an extremely nice player who let me tag along the higher level maps so that it’d be easier for me to level up. Unfortunately, he took me to the Orc Village where I kept on dying… Yeah, he’s more or less what in pRO is called a tank, but at least I can say I didn’t ask him to be a tank for me. He did it on his own. We were supposed to go to the culvert as a party(with two other guys, one an acolyte) but they both disappeared on us and I dunno why. So me and my new found partymate went somewhere else instead. He’s a veteran player, since he’s been playing since early June, so he knows all the nice places where I can level up easily /and/ get tons of zeny (money). So now at least I can buy better equipment. It’s pitiful how some novices just sit down inside a city broadcasting that they’re asking for alms (namamalimos…) coz I think they should just go out and kill the lower level monsters with the little equipment they have so they can slowly gather items to sell and get more zeny out of so they could buy the better equipment. Speaking of novices… I finally experienced pano maging tank… my tag-along, I’m happy to say, leveled up about five or six times in around ten minutes of playing; while I ran out of carrots trying to heal myself coz we didn’t have an acolyte with us and he took such a /long/ time killing off one monster that said monster usually exhausts my HP even with my level 10 fast regen. I guess I’m just trying to give back the favor.. coz someone helped me so I’mnow helping someone else. Hehhe… nahahalata bang sobrang addict na ko? Bakit naman kasi nung one year na wala akong ginagawa at nasa bahay lang ako wala pa itong game na ito e… ngayong may pasok ako’t supposedly nag-aaral dun nagkaron. Haaaaaaaayyyy… ganyan talaga ne? Murphy’s law.

I just had a rather weird dream. Weird coz it had the F4 in it (minus Lei). They were the F4 in MG not the boy band. I was apparently their schoolmate or whatever. Dunno. In the dream it felt like I knew them quite well; like I’ve been friends with them for a long while. I remember laughing inside at how Dao seems pissed but actually was nagtatampo coz Shan Cai left town for a family vacation and hindi sya kasama; Mei Zhou’s just as kenkoy as ever just like in the show, he’s teasing Dao about the whole not being ale to find Shan Cai bit; XiMen, I remember, was rather surly, I somehow was able to make him tell me what it was that was bothering him. Seems even my dream self likes him best among the F4 ^^0 coz I remember feeling a blush come out when he suddenly took my hand and asked me out on a date for the next day. I think that’s when I woke up *sweatdrop*

Hmmm… does this mean I’m actually obsessing about the F4 and I just don’t wanna admit it?

Oh well, I still like My MVP Valentine’s plotline better. It’s just that mas gwapo kasi yung F4 e hehehhe ^_____^