Sunday, October 31, 2004

Despite Saint-chan's rather derogatory reviews about it, I actually liked the House of Flying Daggers. It doesn’t count as one of my all-time favorites, but it’s very tolerable. Nice fight scenes. The plot’s super predictable. Andy Lau’s character was a pervert ^^0 and Emski’s beloved TK’s character was a notch less perverted than Andy’s. I sure as hell liked this movie better than Resident Evil 2 (mom liked both… coz both are action films, so to speak).

Am watching Underworld in Star Movies right now. Lucien’s cute! Kraven’s a tad bit pathetic.

Got a hair cut yesterday. My hair’s just shoulder length now. I don’t know what came over me… I was only planning to help mom to the hairdresser’s so she could get a hair cut, I ended up having one myself. It’s actually kinda cute though, the hair style. Still layered and as unruly as ever coz my natural wave is back. My hair’s blessedly not as dead and flat as it looked like after I had it relaxed… now it bounces. Literally, especially if I jump or just walk slightly briskly. Come to think of it, my hair looks kinda like that of Underworld’s Selene, tamer and more in contact with a comb.

Oh yeah… why did I decide to go online again tonight? Hmmm… can’t seem to access the site I’m downloading Angel Sanctuary from… I’m on chapter 15 already, dammit sobrang bitin! Michael’s having a breakthrough about how he feels about his not-so-beloved brother… wahhh… Rociel turned Kira into mince meat! Dammit…

Ahhhh yeah… now I remember… I was supposed to greet Emski a very…

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY, EMS!!!

Bukas na bday mo di ba? Kinda can't find ur landline and I dunno ur cellno so dito na lang, ne? U'll forever remain my fave roommate heheh ^^ Ingatz and God Bless ne?

Friday, October 29, 2004


Okay, here are some of the class pictures I told you peeps about in a previous post. Told you we look highschoolish ^^0 Ang saya talaga ng day na yun! Taking the pix and all... haayyy... sayang I wasn't able to go to the swimming gimik. Anyways, I got these pix kahapon lang while getting my grades for the 1st sem. Pasado lahat!!! Hahaha ^^ I'll kick myself pag hindi. 2nd sem, here we go~! Posted by Hello


2nd pic's a candid shot... obvious naman di ba? ^^0 Posted by Hello

Tuesday, October 26, 2004


Am getting hooked on this tv series called One Tree Hill on ETC. Gawds! Nathan is such a complete jerk! Lucas I like coz of his name, heheh? What? I like the name Lucas, is it any wonder why I named one of my characters as such? And a main character too at that? And then suggest the same name to Ana-nechan as well? ^_______^ Naumpisahan ko kasi e, so ayun, got hooked na tuloy. Sinusubaybayan ko na every week. Want it to be Tuesday again so I can watch the next episode! Then again, that would mean na malapit ng matapos sembreak ^^0 I like getting as much rest as I can. Nakakapanibago that I don't have to wake up and hussle to get ready for school.
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Monday, October 25, 2004

Hmmm… what’s her name again? That huntress in the Ragnarok anime? Guessing that her orig Jap voice was in Kansai dialect and so she got a “probinsiana” accent in the Tag version. Her voice still kinda irks me off, but then, I rarely watch the anime anyway so it’s okay. Hay, it’s so predictable that they’d pair her up with the assassin.

The Fil Furuba dub is atrocious! Watched it last Saturday while texting – more like ranting – with Seika and Ana who were watching the same thing wherever they were at the time. I hate the characters’ voices, except Akito’s which they seem to have gotten perfectly (of course they made Aki-chan’s voice a guy’s coz in the anime Akito’s male unlike the manga). I hate that they cut off some key scenes and dialogues. To think I recommended the darn thing to one of the 2E peeps… di maganda! Yuck! They should’ve kept with the Jap dub and just used subtitles, the orig Jap’s perfect as it was. My biggest gripe lang talaga is that ang dami nila ki-nut! Di tuloy na-express ng mabuti how close and attached Tohru is to her mom and how that attachment influences most if not all of her actions and decisions.

Re-watching RK both on AXN and ABSCBN. Like I said in my last post, am in RK fever again. Still rereading the manga translations plus researched some historical stuff about some well-known Meiji era people… now if only I could finish the first two parts of the fic I’m doing so I can do the third part which is the most complex of the three. Can you believe I printed out ALL of the translations?! Buti di naubos ink ko. Ubos nga lang long bond paper ko ^^0

Uriel's kinda cool... I kinda know how he feels too... ah well...

Am still awake! Got tired of coloring L-16 pix so am now rereading the RK manga translations I downloaded from maigo-san's website. Need to review the canon so I could continue and revamp the story I was writing that was Hiko-centric. Well, it's not really Hiko Seijuro-centric per se... guess I'm just using the Hiksters to introduce and evolve my own character, called Mae (a play on Emski's name ^^0). Am fleshing out Mae-chan's background and what I want her interaction with Hiko to be like. I plan on keeping with the canon that Hiko will no longer teach the Hiten Mitsurugi Ryu technique to anyone anymore... just want him to teach Mae a few moves that'll serve her later in life when she finally leaves Hiko to continue her shall we say, quest. Have to make Mae leave before Kenji comes into the picture by becoming Hiko's next pseudo student... so that leaves me with a few years to work with considering I mentioned that Kenshin and Kaoru had just married during the start of my fic...

What's with the sudden regaining of interest with RK and this fic? Well, I got some reviews about it in my email and this particular reader more or less begged me to continue it so I shall... got nothing to do anyway.

Well, I do have something else to do, like finishing the Illu fic challenge and the pix I promised to color for Ana-nechan, but then I feel inspired in doing the RK fic so I better write like mad while this interest lasts.

Friday, October 22, 2004

Ever since watching that Iron Chef episode where they featured bellpeppers, I've been absolutely crazy about them. Wish I could find the other kinds here but really, all we have are the green and red kinds. It is true... I love the red one better than the green. Green's a bit too bitter while the red's just right and sweet.

Swimming daw sa Oct.29 sabi ni Roseann. Dunno if I can go. Want to, though I still dunno how to swim.

Haaaay... di ako natuloy kanina for the basketball game. Wanted to watch that, well, not really watch it per se... hard to explain since I don't want to make bulgar of something here hehehe *winks at Emski: don't tell okay?*

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Drin, text you my celno pag may credit na ulit ako.

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Anyway, here are some quizzes:

red aura
Your aura shines Red!


What Color Is Your Aura?
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Hmmm... I don't really agree with that.

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Contrast
Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!


Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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Hmmm... I kinda remember this picture. Does it mean I took this quiz before and got the same result again? Ah well...

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He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he will always love you from the bottom of his heart! And if your friends start
He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that
scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he
will always love you from the bottom of his
heart! And if your friends start telling you
hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in
their faces. You are the key to unlock that
heart of his^^.


What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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Wai! Setsuna!!! ^_^ Would've liked it better had it been Kira...

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pure
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
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a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
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What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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Hahaha! Make her hair black and it'lllook exactly like mine ^^0

All About Food

Was tasked to be cook for yesterday’s class party. Hoped our C.I.s would come but they didn’t. Would have been fun if they did.

Anyways, speaking about food, I just tried out a recipe I got from Heny Sison’s show last Sunday. It’s Steamed Chocolate Pudding. Altered the recipe a bit by by adding crushed pecans. It tastes somewhat like that chocolate cake from Red Ribbon (I guess depende sa chocolate brand na gagamitin, I used that Dark Swiss Chocolate thingie I bought sa SM Supermarket and it turned out pretty okay. Wala akong mahanap na bitter sweet choco eh.) only a hell of a lot softer and more decadent coz of the caramel sauce poured on top.

Here’s the recipe:

Ingredients:
125g bitter sweet chocolate, chopped
1cup butter
1 piece egg
1cup sugar
1cup all purpose flour
2teaspoons baking powder
1cup fresh milk
1tablespoon vanilla

(For the caramel sauce)
2cups sugar
1/4cup butter
1cup heavy cream
brandy

Method:
Prepare the ingredients. Get a baking pan or mould (pwedeng lanera, yung pang leche flan ba?) and brush the mould with some of the butter (para ‘wag mag stick yung cake at madali siyang i-release later). Sift the baking powder and flour together (sift 3 times). In a double broiler, melt the butter and bitter sweet chocolate. When these are melted, take off from the fire and add the egg (temper the egg muna with a bit of choco+butter mixture before adding it to the whole mixture, para wag maluto/mag-buo-buo yung egg), sugar, vanilla, sifted dry ingredients, and milk. Mix well preferably with wire whisk. Strain the concoction to make sure walang buo-buo na bits (Actually didn’t strain mine anymore since I added pecans to the mixture while mixing it.) Then put in the butter-brushed mould, cover with aluminum foil and steam for 1 ½ hours. You’ll know it’s cooked when if you touch the pudding, it springs back. When it’s cooked, let it cool on its mould at room temperature. Release from the mould and pour the sauce on top.

For the sauce; caramelize the sugar with the butter. Then add cream and brandy.


I like recipes like these coz we don’t have an oven at home. We do have a steamer so recipes like these are rather easy and fun to do. Grabe, when you eat this make sure you have a pitcher of water nearby coz sobra siyang sugary sweet. As in konti lang nabusog na ako since every bite umiinom ako ng tubig hahahah ^^0

Checked out Jamie Oliver’s official site (http://jamieoliver.com) and gods wow! I just love all the recipes available there! Especially the salads and vegetarian stuff. Yum!!!


Am planning to make a salad tomorrow with the following ingredients:
Feta cheese, mozzarella cheese, lettuce, cucumber, tomato, hard boiled egg, lemon, balsamic vinegar, extra virgin olive oil and parsley. Wonder what the hell it’ll taste like hahahah...^^0

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

I feel sad that the semester has ended. Really didn’t want it to end. I will miss Section 2E. Everything about it, from to good to the not-so-bad-if-you-really-don’t-think-about-them-much experiences, I will truly miss. Never mind the fact that at times I feel like I’m in high school again coz of the antics they do. God, those kids are fun to be with ^_^ I will really, truly, and surely miss having classes with them. Sure some of them will probably still be my classmates next semester, but still, it won’t be the same. Haaaaaaaay...

The good thing is, no one flunked in Anatomy. We talked to Sir Farley a while ago and he announced that to us. He won’t give us our grades yet but still it’s good to hear no one flunked. Delikado lang nga grade nung iba and they’re gonna be on probation next sem, pero they won’t have to shift out of the course or look for another school or something. Thank you so very much for the consideration and kindness you’ve shown us, Sirs Farley and Dennis. Napamahal na sakin mga 2E and I would’ve been very sad if anyone of us failed.

Anyways, here are some pix of section 2E with our beloved C.I.s (Clinical Instructors). Sobrang para kaming high school nung nagpapa-picture taking pero ang saya talaga!!! ^_________^

To follow na lang yung talagang class pix na formal na complete kami. Di pa kasi nabibigay e.


pic taken just a few hours ago at the mall... Tapos na 1st sem!!! ^___^  Posted by Hello


at Domus Mariae or whatever the name of the UA hotel is... 2E peeps with PHC1 CIs Posted by Hello


at the classroom: 2E peeps with Sir Dennis Posted by Hello


our PHC1 Clinical Instructors: (left to right) Sir Jenel, Ms. Rhiziel, and Sir Sese Posted by Hello


from left to right: Roma, me, Sir Farley, Rose, and Shoks Posted by Hello

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Thank you Lord for not giving me a brother; my life would have been a hell of a lot different had I one.

But anyway, had a dream last night that I had one. A fraternal twin at that. Must be coz I’ve been reading Angel Sanctuary.

In the dream, he’s my older brother, by 7 minutes. His name’s Drew. Dunno if that’s short for Andrew or what... (heheh, The Outsiders’ Andrew still hounding my mind). He had dark wavy unruly hair, dark eyes and taller than me.

Everyone called him Drew, and I remember dad saying that his name came from Andres, our paternal grandfather’s name.

Drew and I go to the same school, and we were in high school in the dream. I remember complaining why we had to go to different colleges, so I guess we’re in senior year in high school or something.

I remember him talking to me while we were walking home. The street we were passing was lined with these very beautiful fire trees. The wind was blowing rather hard too and it was around sunset.

Drew was walking a few steps ahead, saying something about us having to have separate lives eventually and that we can’t always be together all the time. I realized that he was okay with the idea of going to separate colleges and that he was actually excited about it. I was to go to an all-girls college while he gets to go to a coed one, I didn’t like the idea of being separated from my twin especially since we’ve been going to the same school ever since we were toddlers in nursery school.

I was pretty pissed off with him for saying that so I suddenly crossed the street without looking. The last thing I remember before waking up was hearing the screech of a car’s tires and Drew’s eyes going huge as his mouth started to scream my name.

Melodramatic, ne? hahahahha!!!

Dang, I died. In the dream. Ah well. It was just a dream. Drew got his wish, I guess. Wonder how he felt after that... wanna go back to that dream just to see his reaction. Ang sadista ko no? Ala lang. E he wanted separate lives, ayun tuloy, bandang huli mag-isa na lang siya ^^0


This is either James or Harry... either way, yum! Ang galing talaga nung artist! Have to find the site again though, kinda didnt take note of the url Posted by Hello


James and Sirius, at least I think it's Sirius Black... could be Snape for all I know. James' cute though, isn't he? Posted by Hello


Found these while surfing links from epilogue... (I DID NOT DRAW THESE, OK?) Harry Potter reading dunno what book, wish the artist did a colored one though, but it's nice as it is. Posted by Hello

Saturday, October 16, 2004

I can access the download site for Angel Sanctuary again! Wahahahah!! Am in a downloading fever... so what?

Finals for my majors are over. Minors na lang on Monday. Three tests in one day, plus a few pesky quizzes na pahabol for Anatomy, then BAKASYON NA!!!

Enrollment for the 2nd sem won't be till November so that gives me at least two weeks to rest, sketch, paint, and write to my heart's content ^________^ Sa wakas masusulat ko na yung Illu-fic challenge ^__^

Reunion tayo!!!! Ana!!! Emma!!! Seika!!! Wai!!!!!!!! ^____________________^

I'm obviously feeling uber genki ^____^ Weheheheh ^^0 Hope this lasts...

Thursday, October 14, 2004


Oh my... if somebody I loved told me this I would veritably melt in a gooish puddle *sigh* Errr, me downloading manga scanlations of MuchaKucha Daisuke since I can't access the Angel Sanctuary download site. Should be studying for Anatomy right now coz it's our finals tomorrow so... ja~! Posted by Hello


Just thought I'd share this pic of Duo Maxwell I found. My fave GW pilot. He looks absolutely scrumptious doen't he? ^____^ Posted by Hello

Final exams start today and will go on till next week. Am supposed to be studying for PHC1 but I feel like my head's about to burst with all the info so am taking a short break.

Had our class picture taken yesterday with our beloved CIs. It was high school-ish yes, but it was absolute fun ^________^ Kwela talaga mga CI namin, lalo na si Sir Sese and Sir Farley heheheh... totally love those two profs even when they drown us with workloads. Haaaayyy... patapos na semester. Don't want it to end coz it's been such fun. Anyways, will post pics as soon as I get my copies ^_^

I LOVE this website: http://www.shadowscapes.com/ Try to visit it, peeps, it's really worth your time ^^





Sunday, October 10, 2004


Got tired of typing last night... so took out my sketchpad and made this super simple drawing, brought out my watercolors and viola, a pic of Russell. At least it's supposed to be Russ... It's my first try in a looooong while to use watercolors and I fear I've lost the touch on how to use the darn things. So, mental note: remember to play around with watercolors during the sembreak, after all, practice does make perfect. Posted by Hello

Saturday, October 09, 2004

I wonder how many noticed that while they were burying Lola Oding, a few meters away was a birthday party for a young girl of maybe 5 years old. Isn’t that neat? It’s such a poignant reminder that though one life ends, another still continues and probably others more have just begun somewhere else in the world.

I particularly liked Father Larry’s sermon. That Lola seemed such a simple woman, a quiet lady who came to mass every day, sitting at a corner usually alone, unassuming in her ways… but then seeing all the people who came to her funeral (and there were a LOT, filled almost all the seats of the cathedral!!!) just showed how wonderful she was while she was alive.

I want my funeral to be like that! Of course I don’t wanna die yet. Am just wishing that when I die people would miss me like they obviously miss and love Lola Oding.

And I cried. I don’t even remember crying at Lola Caring’s funeral. Maybe I was too young? Dunno. I cried while Father Larry was talking. Di ako humagulgol ha! Just shed a tear or two coz I remember talking to Lola Oding about what I wanted to do with my life. I remember clearly that the last time we talked, she was telling me that I shouldn’t not want to have a family of my own. Coz I told her that I had no plans of marrying, and she reacted with a kind laugh but then proceeded to tell me that it would be nicer if I had a family of my own.

Now I understand why she told me that… why she wanted to see me married off and with my own kids… coz she had such a happy family life, such a wonderful life with her children. Gawds, she had nine! Nine!!! So many to care for, and so many who loves her back as much as she loved them.

I envy her that. I realized, during the funeral mass, that if my mom and dad are dead by the time it was my turn to die and if I didn’t have my own family, no one would mourn for me. Well maybe some would… but I wouldn’t have any family, of my own blood, no siblings, no children… and that would be so very sad, I think.

Not that this realization makes me suddenly want to grab some guy’s hand and drag him down to the altar or whatever… no. I don’t want that.

Whatever comes will come. I’ll accept whatever fate and God has in store for me.


Flowers are meant to be a reflection of heaven?s glory; so are human beings. But both wither when plucked from life leaving an unpleasant miasma, a scarcely recognizable appearance, and a faint memory of what they were that time eventually fades away. Posted by Hello

He thought I was married. We were answering this form for one of our classes and I asked him a question about it, then he saw the “married” civil status and assumed it was me… the thing was, I was putting in my mom’s info so of course I’ll put in married in her civil status. He looked so shocked and incredulous at the time. He even took a step back in his surprise. Course I told him no, that I’m not married. Hello? Like, I’m even on the verge of thinking about marrying anyone right now. Well, if it’s Russell then its okay, but the guy’s 2D so obviously can’t marry Rushkins hehehhe…

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Watched “Feng Shui” with Shoks, Rose, Leah, Madz, and Jamil yesterday afternoon. Wasn’t at all scary as they said it was. Dunno. It was kinda predictable. Liked the Ring (Jap version) better; that movie still gives me the creeps every time I remember it and happen to look at the tv in my room at the same time. But have to admit that it’s an okay film considering it stars Kris Aquino and all. Her acting as a concerned mother’s kinda off… you know, parang pilit na mabait kuno? If I were the one to write that thing, I would’ve made her use the cursed mirror to kill off her cheating husband, and then make her agonize about that decision or something. Whatever. Heard there’s a part two of the movie. Hell if I’m gonna watch that.

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Went to Lola Oding’s wake yesterday. The place was literally filled with flowers that you can barely see the people sitting outside playing cards and talking. It was like a huge, yet somber, reunion. Hate wakes. Hate funerals more, and that’s today. Mom and I have to go there later.

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Finals week starts next week. Ah hell week. Love hell weeks. Not.
Am supposed to be finishing up a research paper right now so…

Oh yeah, almost forgot.

Ana-nechan!!! Will submit your poems for the next issue na lang, ne? The current one’s kind full na daw kasi and is set to get printed. How’s the fic challenge writing going? Haven’t started mine yet since David’s being finicky and James is being a complete nuisance… again.

Seika-chan! Am half sorry and half relieved to hear you and he-who-must-not-be-named have separated ways. Don’t worry, dear, paniguradong may darating na iba niyan for you. I just know it.

Emski-chan! Anu new cell no mo?

You guys wanna meet up during the sem break? Hehhe… gah, yun lang nanaman talaga ang free time ko ulit. Hate my sched, gah.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

What to say?

Got more or less two more weeks till sembreak. Means final exams are within sight. I don't want to think about how much I will have to review for my majors considering the coverage is cover to cover... gah.

Was able to watch the ending of the Outsiders in CETV. Course it was in Chinese, and had it not been for Ana who already told me what happened, I wouldn't have understood a whit of it.

Andrew's really so much like Russell!!! My gosh! Wonder if I could contact that actor to pose for me so I could draw him... gawds... I really really want to draw a realist-style Russ.

Should be editing our research paper but am too lazy. Actually sleepy right now so... zzzzzzzzz...

Monday, October 04, 2004

October 4:

School news:
Okay... tapos na RD (that's Return Demo) for my PHC1 class. Had to demo taking the client's vital signs... blah blah blah. I don't wanna talk about school anymore.

Dream sequence:
Like I told An-nechan and Seika through text messaging kaninang umaga, I dreamt about the Illu guys. We were in Italy for some reason... seems J's an archeologist of sorts or at least he found a buried treasure somewhere in the Coliseum, R got so mad at him for taking A instead of him and D, seems the three of them are partners of sorts, at least the standing agreement was to share whatever findings they had or whatever.

Woke u coz of the bloody alarm clock. Sayang. It was getting to the really interesting part pa naman where J and R are about to fight.. as in fist fight ata. Ata.

Sad/Bad news:
At 430am today, Lola Oding died.
Learned from Tito Toto when he called while I was getting ready for school. Dang.
Ah well... that's life, I guess. I hope she's in a better place. May she rest in peace.

Bloody hell... I can say all these now coz I wasn't that close to Lola. I mean, she's not really my grandmother per se, so... had it been someone I was close to, I probably wont say those damn cliches about her being in a bleeding better place and such. Shit. I'd probably be too devastated to move. I hope Tita Pes'll be alright. I hope she gets to move on. Guess all we can really do now is pray for Lola's soul and move on. But shit... I hate the thought of having to have to die one day.


October 5:

Jologs-attack:
Am becoming an Andrew-fanatic... Waahh! Don't care!

Kasi, ba't ginawa siyang kahawig ni Russell e!!! The hair, the gait, the body structure, the shape of the face, the way he dresses... gah! Why why why?! @_@

Ana-Nechan! Paghanap naman ng pic niya o? I'm planning to base Russ' realist style drawing with Andrew's pic. Kahawig na rin so why not use the darn guy, right?

Things I recently watched: (besides The Outsiders in both Filipino dub AND Chinese)

Ohhh.. Draco. He looks real cute in the second movie, but a complete sissy, ninny and wuss in the 3rd. I miss Oliver Wood.

Anyways... watched "13 Going on 30" or whatever the hell the title of that movie was. Feel good, love story, yadda yadda. Predictable plot, stereotypical characters... Guess all I can say is that watch it if you feel like watching a chick flick that doesn't have anything else to offer other than the sight of Jennifer Garner's wardrobe and shoes.

(Wood!!! It's Wood!!! Wood, cute adorable Oliver Wood. Too bad really that I don't get to see him in action much in the movies... *sigh*)

Also watched Amelie... or have I already told you that? Don't remember. It's cute. Also a love story/comedy but with a hell of a lot more depth plot and character-wise. It's officially one of my faves now, hehheh... see? I'm not a complete chick-flick hater.

(Just a thought... how come Draco's the only one worth looking at among the Slytherins? I mean really... antagonists are more effective when they're good looking. Seriously. Half of the Slytherin crowd's cast look... never mind ^^0)

Readings:
Of course besides my ever favorite Anat& Physio book, I try to read my usual novels. Me trying to read at least one novel per week... or two.

Recently read Lady Murasaki's The Tale of Genji and Jostein Gaarder's The Christmas Mystery. Had to force myself to finish Genji, but the Xmas Mystery I finished in the space of two days... wouldve finished it in one sitting had I no classes. Ang ganda! Mas magandang basahin pag malapit na pasko. Wanna give a copy of it to someone sa school since he's so into the Bible, kaso baka iba isipin niya na reason behind why I'm giving him something. Wag na lang, mahirap na.